04-24-2015, 12:00 AM
MEANINGLESSNESS & QM
The weight of world/feeling/body has no value--in inadequacy I mindfully condemn 'I am energy' > I despise that I AM.
...but energy as reason sees objectively that my energy cannot be negated.
Withdrawal into inadequacy is like a slow moving form of fear, and merely another form of sexual energy. So reason, having learned detachment in other ways, realizes now that it can (almost) detach from energy in the slow moving form of itself; which is why zen mindfulness is practiced--to make motion of energy observable.
However this reforming to near stillness is still a trick to me--REALLY, REALLY, because it is an endless cycled instability, because that's what energy does, WHAT I DO > change form.
Though, WITHDRAWAL TEACHES ME NOT TO RUSH (change is a given fact to reason now), and I am not in a hurry to get anywhere. I am not getting out of myself (energy) no how and no way. Why hurry? (hurry where?)
BUT BECAUSE of energy's cycle, I necessarily get lost in concepts like worry, hurry, not rush, and fear FOREVER; I 'really' (not real) do want to get out in a hurry.
My reason {tool FOR detachment} lets the false 'reality' of wanting to get out, be identified as the one word--FALSE. So now the Myth of Sisyphus state is laughable just like sadness can be. This fucking, failing futility brings joy > that is exactly worded the right way and without hyperbole--IF understood in the way of enlightenment.
NEVERTHELESS, I talk about watching myself in a cognizance called awareness (with enlightenment et al)--AND I'm still lost, you SEE?
SO, reason substitutes the conceptual FALSE with an empirical false in meaninglessness. This (non)value becomes THE OBJECT to be detached from. At first, such worthlessness takes me to the lowest slowest (smiling) frequency of hertz energy. {Similar to bose-einstein condesate in physics ('Inadequacy' in this slow state of energy will be easily transformed to another conscious state)}.
> I SEE worthless self (my own energy) in clarity, as simply an object to detach from. Then energy 'figuratively' detaches from itself > steps outside of its own show. Energy as reason's wisdom NOW knows whatever state, right down to the manifestation of picking nose, makes no difference.
Why be afraid of my meaningless isolation in a state of energy that is forever fickle and indestructible? What is the difference that I change anything? {Do I get that this is the reality?} I don't create new energy. I don't (cannot) succeed in the true sense of the word > I can't become anything, because I already am energy. But STILL--I DO WITHDRAW. Why? BECAUSE I WANT SOME FUCKING PEACE (that is WHY--I am laughing so fucking hard it hurts). I don't want anymore fearful cognitive dissonance.
So I REALLY DO (contradiction) want to change energy. Hmm. ???
As Albert Einstein describes waves and particles, "We observe one and sometimes the other. We have two contradictory pictures of reality, neither of them fully describes the phenomena of light or of every elementary particle." > BUT TOGETHER ALLOW AN INTEGRATED PERCEPTION. THAT perceptual wholeness applies here. Do you understand?
Being authentic is possible.
Indulge meaninglessness without self-pity > PLAY with energy/self.
Wrote this years ago. Of course, then I met serloco. AND !!EXPLOSION!!, anything silly I wrote then, now or ...... ....
Thank you s
The weight of world/feeling/body has no value--in inadequacy I mindfully condemn 'I am energy' > I despise that I AM.
...but energy as reason sees objectively that my energy cannot be negated.
Withdrawal into inadequacy is like a slow moving form of fear, and merely another form of sexual energy. So reason, having learned detachment in other ways, realizes now that it can (almost) detach from energy in the slow moving form of itself; which is why zen mindfulness is practiced--to make motion of energy observable.
However this reforming to near stillness is still a trick to me--REALLY, REALLY, because it is an endless cycled instability, because that's what energy does, WHAT I DO > change form.
Though, WITHDRAWAL TEACHES ME NOT TO RUSH (change is a given fact to reason now), and I am not in a hurry to get anywhere. I am not getting out of myself (energy) no how and no way. Why hurry? (hurry where?)
BUT BECAUSE of energy's cycle, I necessarily get lost in concepts like worry, hurry, not rush, and fear FOREVER; I 'really' (not real) do want to get out in a hurry.
My reason {tool FOR detachment} lets the false 'reality' of wanting to get out, be identified as the one word--FALSE. So now the Myth of Sisyphus state is laughable just like sadness can be. This fucking, failing futility brings joy > that is exactly worded the right way and without hyperbole--IF understood in the way of enlightenment.
NEVERTHELESS, I talk about watching myself in a cognizance called awareness (with enlightenment et al)--AND I'm still lost, you SEE?
SO, reason substitutes the conceptual FALSE with an empirical false in meaninglessness. This (non)value becomes THE OBJECT to be detached from. At first, such worthlessness takes me to the lowest slowest (smiling) frequency of hertz energy. {Similar to bose-einstein condesate in physics ('Inadequacy' in this slow state of energy will be easily transformed to another conscious state)}.
> I SEE worthless self (my own energy) in clarity, as simply an object to detach from. Then energy 'figuratively' detaches from itself > steps outside of its own show. Energy as reason's wisdom NOW knows whatever state, right down to the manifestation of picking nose, makes no difference.
Why be afraid of my meaningless isolation in a state of energy that is forever fickle and indestructible? What is the difference that I change anything? {Do I get that this is the reality?} I don't create new energy. I don't (cannot) succeed in the true sense of the word > I can't become anything, because I already am energy. But STILL--I DO WITHDRAW. Why? BECAUSE I WANT SOME FUCKING PEACE (that is WHY--I am laughing so fucking hard it hurts). I don't want anymore fearful cognitive dissonance.
So I REALLY DO (contradiction) want to change energy. Hmm. ???
As Albert Einstein describes waves and particles, "We observe one and sometimes the other. We have two contradictory pictures of reality, neither of them fully describes the phenomena of light or of every elementary particle." > BUT TOGETHER ALLOW AN INTEGRATED PERCEPTION. THAT perceptual wholeness applies here. Do you understand?
Being authentic is possible.
Indulge meaninglessness without self-pity > PLAY with energy/self.
Wrote this years ago. Of course, then I met serloco. AND !!EXPLOSION!!, anything silly I wrote then, now or ...... ....
Thank you s