08-24-2014, 12:01 AM
Ironically, it was the "Castaneda' recapitulation that took me to episodes of early boyhood shame. Doing it properly, I acutely relived some of the moments. While it was cathartic, I saw I wanted more from it. I wanted its pain and horror.
THAT'S how I happened on it. True, to penetrate, I had to trick myself (assimilate being a pathetic loser, and even outwardly manifested by being submissive to my wife for a few months (which really played with hers and my mind). But this was all a controlled private affair---I was no where near going into the world and taking **** from anyone---- THOUGH I AM LAUGHING HARD, I did REALLY learn to like licking my wife's ****.
STILL LAUGHING. OMG I love doing it now, and she does like having it done.
THAT'S how I happened on it. True, to penetrate, I had to trick myself (assimilate being a pathetic loser, and even outwardly manifested by being submissive to my wife for a few months (which really played with hers and my mind). But this was all a controlled private affair---I was no where near going into the world and taking **** from anyone---- THOUGH I AM LAUGHING HARD, I did REALLY learn to like licking my wife's ****.
STILL LAUGHING. OMG I love doing it now, and she does like having it done.