08-24-2014, 12:01 AM
billy wrote:I started watching the Cleveland Browns. I'll take a break. Just curious though, since you SEE everything fairly malleable, why is it hard to understand I can 'Stalk?' shame, but not as a loser. I went to dark places to see they had no power over me. REALLY
I never said I can not understand how you can stalk shame from a position of not being a loser. I see that this is easy to do. I too stalk many feelings and without even being attached to them, i can feel without feeling, or placing slef-value onto these feelings. Long ago I suspended all feelings, and felt nothing for a very long time. After I while tho I 'felt' the desire to feel again, and not be so shut off from my old emoitions and feelings, because I remembered them. I wanted them back, and so I asked my ally if she could help me feel again and to learn of feelings. And oh boy did i feel again. At this time my ally was a little shocked with me and said to another ally "did you hear that he asked me to help him feel again?". It was a quick shift from a position of awareness where I rely only on myself and my own power to do things, and gave nothing to anyone here. however I knew the power of my ally, and so quickly shited into the new position of reliacne on my ally for help, knowing full wel that she could do it easily, shifting and setting the power in her hands and trusting her with it. Anyways almost right away, a few hours later, I began having incredible feeling enter into me of all forms. Incredible powerful feelings beyond my previous capacity to experience. Imagine rapid cycling bipolar disorder if you can only with hightened sensitivity to feelings and emotions. It was pure bliss, and the hell of anger and rage, it was overwhelming lust, and then severe guilt, depession and shame of being lustful and raging, hostile. It was a rollercoaster to say the least, It took me about a week until I realized I again had to use my controlled folly, and I began to focus on my feelings and intend them to the positions i wanted. i made decisions because I could set my intent to expereince them how I set them to experience. i could just imagine and choose how I react to things, how anything makes me feel, and then when that event comes my way the exact feeling i intended to have would naturally occur. I used to get upset by the allies who sought fear in me and then absorbed this fear. the allies who set up scenarios to produce feelings they wanted to feed from. But I just set my intent to not feel fear and when they came around to scare the wits out of me and produce these horrifying expereinces that would nearly make me **** myself I felt nothing and just saw them for what they were doing, and was not scared, just black faced again. When they set up their scenarios to anger me, and make me attack I instead joined them in theri evilness and laughed my ass off too, that i used to despise and freak out about. No longer did the feelings hold power over me but i held power over the feelings. The allies in that place stopped setting up the evil scenarios too, as well as the fearful ones. I then learned the ancient technique of willfully turning feeling on and off to feed my allies and control them with my feelings. I found they like many feelings too, not just fear. I set my controlled folly to produce the feelings i enjoy most according to my predilection and intended paths. Since I orefer not to enjoy evil I do not, even though I can enjoy it. i prefer the world of positive generating energy, and not evil abound. And so I naturally set my intent in this way. many changes I set and control now. But yes I understand pretty well how one can use feelings for power, set their own knowledge of them, their own awareness of them, detach from them, suspend them, as well as many things. I do not think only one positions of feelings is true, but many different positions of feelings are true. That is why I disagreed to your statement that all feelings come from sexual based origin, because I do not see it that way. It doesn;t mean that you do not though, and that it is not true for you in your positon. I know full well that i have many of my own positions, very different from many other ones of mine, and often vastly differetn from other people's, or beings. I know that I have ny own history as well, my own timeline, just as the sorcerer's have their own history of reality, then that of average humans. I have stalked all these things and explored them in depth. Infinite time. Manyh alternate timelines.
I never said I can not understand how you can stalk shame from a position of not being a loser. I see that this is easy to do. I too stalk many feelings and without even being attached to them, i can feel without feeling, or placing slef-value onto these feelings. Long ago I suspended all feelings, and felt nothing for a very long time. After I while tho I 'felt' the desire to feel again, and not be so shut off from my old emoitions and feelings, because I remembered them. I wanted them back, and so I asked my ally if she could help me feel again and to learn of feelings. And oh boy did i feel again. At this time my ally was a little shocked with me and said to another ally "did you hear that he asked me to help him feel again?". It was a quick shift from a position of awareness where I rely only on myself and my own power to do things, and gave nothing to anyone here. however I knew the power of my ally, and so quickly shited into the new position of reliacne on my ally for help, knowing full wel that she could do it easily, shifting and setting the power in her hands and trusting her with it. Anyways almost right away, a few hours later, I began having incredible feeling enter into me of all forms. Incredible powerful feelings beyond my previous capacity to experience. Imagine rapid cycling bipolar disorder if you can only with hightened sensitivity to feelings and emotions. It was pure bliss, and the hell of anger and rage, it was overwhelming lust, and then severe guilt, depession and shame of being lustful and raging, hostile. It was a rollercoaster to say the least, It took me about a week until I realized I again had to use my controlled folly, and I began to focus on my feelings and intend them to the positions i wanted. i made decisions because I could set my intent to expereince them how I set them to experience. i could just imagine and choose how I react to things, how anything makes me feel, and then when that event comes my way the exact feeling i intended to have would naturally occur. I used to get upset by the allies who sought fear in me and then absorbed this fear. the allies who set up scenarios to produce feelings they wanted to feed from. But I just set my intent to not feel fear and when they came around to scare the wits out of me and produce these horrifying expereinces that would nearly make me **** myself I felt nothing and just saw them for what they were doing, and was not scared, just black faced again. When they set up their scenarios to anger me, and make me attack I instead joined them in theri evilness and laughed my ass off too, that i used to despise and freak out about. No longer did the feelings hold power over me but i held power over the feelings. The allies in that place stopped setting up the evil scenarios too, as well as the fearful ones. I then learned the ancient technique of willfully turning feeling on and off to feed my allies and control them with my feelings. I found they like many feelings too, not just fear. I set my controlled folly to produce the feelings i enjoy most according to my predilection and intended paths. Since I orefer not to enjoy evil I do not, even though I can enjoy it. i prefer the world of positive generating energy, and not evil abound. And so I naturally set my intent in this way. many changes I set and control now. But yes I understand pretty well how one can use feelings for power, set their own knowledge of them, their own awareness of them, detach from them, suspend them, as well as many things. I do not think only one positions of feelings is true, but many different positions of feelings are true. That is why I disagreed to your statement that all feelings come from sexual based origin, because I do not see it that way. It doesn;t mean that you do not though, and that it is not true for you in your positon. I know full well that i have many of my own positions, very different from many other ones of mine, and often vastly differetn from other people's, or beings. I know that I have ny own history as well, my own timeline, just as the sorcerer's have their own history of reality, then that of average humans. I have stalked all these things and explored them in depth. Infinite time. Manyh alternate timelines.