08-24-2014, 12:01 AM
billy wrote:
MY God, in a conventional sense I have had everything. I got the female who is impeccably bred and had her choice of ANY male she wanted, I have enough material wealth and bred a smart daughter with ambition. I am not bound to those things I have so much as others. AND those rare experiences in life, any one of many which I could pick and say I had my fill of awe.
It reminded me of a time when I was stalking the nagual Julian's gate of love and attraction. I was trying to pick up this beautiful female, so hot. i started pacing along the double open doorway of her living room. Step by careful step, and controlling my energy and projection. I thought of amazing and beautiful she saw me as, and I asked her "what do you think of me?" and she replied "I think you are beautiful!" needless to say we fucked in her bedroom a few moments later.
The other day I wanted to know if I could still attract the most beautiful girl to me in the area, and so I watched and found this incredibly amazing woman. She was very intelligent and highly aware, wrote beautiful poety about advanced states of awareness. Many of which I hold in high regards. Anyways I focused onto her and saw the future. I saw her coming to me, attracted to me. I saw all the guys flocking around her and so just went my own way, yet hooking her attention to me. I began speaking and teaching to people around me of my sorcery concepts, my tales of power, and demenstrated soem manifestations. I got many people around me and soon she joined them. She began complimenting everything I said, calling me a champion even. Now i didn;t take her home. I have no sexual desire and met my intended outcome, and so made a friend instead.
yeah for most of my human life I have had the woman i wanted always. and that woman was usally the most attractive to me and others, but at times i left those women for other ones i found attractive to me in different ways. I can only recall one elusive woman I wanted a lot and did not get. I made a mistake then and paid for it. i even talked to this woman the other day, on facebook, commenting to her on her 'wall' leaving her the message, i saw her picture and I said to her I fogot how beautiful you are. At nearly the exact time a pop up came up and said "I am in a relationship" and picture came up of her and her boyfriend. She did not realistically see my posting yet if you believe in average reality, yetI could see clearly the intent in this reaction. I started howling in laughter, and her picture moved in motion as my pictures do sometimes, smiling at me. i felt no jealousy nor regret, nor envy, nor loss, no desire for her, just laughter and joy in seeing. I could see her page from a different position of awareness then average people, a position where the page is being manifested right now, and so as i continued to read to her, i shifted my awareness to various advanced positions, reflectingmy awareness into her, into the page itself, and communicated to her as the page unfolded, guiding her and myself align as we manifested the page and the reality around us. ansering each others awareness, without the boudaries of time between us. it was nice. I could feel her pull though, trying to get me to again want her, but i just laughed as she sought this energy again in me. not a chance girly.
MY God, in a conventional sense I have had everything. I got the female who is impeccably bred and had her choice of ANY male she wanted, I have enough material wealth and bred a smart daughter with ambition. I am not bound to those things I have so much as others. AND those rare experiences in life, any one of many which I could pick and say I had my fill of awe.
It reminded me of a time when I was stalking the nagual Julian's gate of love and attraction. I was trying to pick up this beautiful female, so hot. i started pacing along the double open doorway of her living room. Step by careful step, and controlling my energy and projection. I thought of amazing and beautiful she saw me as, and I asked her "what do you think of me?" and she replied "I think you are beautiful!" needless to say we fucked in her bedroom a few moments later.
The other day I wanted to know if I could still attract the most beautiful girl to me in the area, and so I watched and found this incredibly amazing woman. She was very intelligent and highly aware, wrote beautiful poety about advanced states of awareness. Many of which I hold in high regards. Anyways I focused onto her and saw the future. I saw her coming to me, attracted to me. I saw all the guys flocking around her and so just went my own way, yet hooking her attention to me. I began speaking and teaching to people around me of my sorcery concepts, my tales of power, and demenstrated soem manifestations. I got many people around me and soon she joined them. She began complimenting everything I said, calling me a champion even. Now i didn;t take her home. I have no sexual desire and met my intended outcome, and so made a friend instead.
yeah for most of my human life I have had the woman i wanted always. and that woman was usally the most attractive to me and others, but at times i left those women for other ones i found attractive to me in different ways. I can only recall one elusive woman I wanted a lot and did not get. I made a mistake then and paid for it. i even talked to this woman the other day, on facebook, commenting to her on her 'wall' leaving her the message, i saw her picture and I said to her I fogot how beautiful you are. At nearly the exact time a pop up came up and said "I am in a relationship" and picture came up of her and her boyfriend. She did not realistically see my posting yet if you believe in average reality, yetI could see clearly the intent in this reaction. I started howling in laughter, and her picture moved in motion as my pictures do sometimes, smiling at me. i felt no jealousy nor regret, nor envy, nor loss, no desire for her, just laughter and joy in seeing. I could see her page from a different position of awareness then average people, a position where the page is being manifested right now, and so as i continued to read to her, i shifted my awareness to various advanced positions, reflectingmy awareness into her, into the page itself, and communicated to her as the page unfolded, guiding her and myself align as we manifested the page and the reality around us. ansering each others awareness, without the boudaries of time between us. it was nice. I could feel her pull though, trying to get me to again want her, but i just laughed as she sought this energy again in me. not a chance girly.