Casual Conversation

[Billy]

1.  You have made me conscious of stalking
2.  You have made me conscious of intent generally
3.   You have made me conscious of not being in a fixed amount of time (I did not realize how that opens up all.)
4.  You have made me conscious of 'filling'  12345... infinity

   I am not overwhelmed by it, but I am apprehensive this is so fast

5.  You have made me conscious of moving from the tonal to the nagual-- this one does not yet have the empiricism of the other things mentioned.
 
I am very weak, lazy, and don't have an abundance of guts.  But, I guess most people are that way.  I keep making the little decisions in front of me when I can.

Do you want details of manifestations, my failures.  I want to cry---but I smile too.  Are you aware of all this?  Does it matter to you? 

What do I say?  There is too much---you give me so much, and I think I **** out.  I don't like that about myself.  I let people see me diminished, and see myself that way sometimes. And, then it is the other way at times.  I do go deeper... then, I think that it is shallow---   ......infinity...... of this.  I don't want out, I don't want in.

We are well connected.  You are blowing me away!  (AND I LIKE IT.)

Do you want details FORMAL MAGIC?