08-29-2014, 12:01 AM
I meant details of the FORMAL MAGIC (NOT calling you FORMAL MAGIC)
Here is a small story. (A year ago) I am seated at my mother's funeral after-dinner with persons outside the family that are friend's of a sister. One insults me by tagging me with an unflattering monicher and injects another insult later. (These are not overtly egregious--- but I know the disrespect.) I let this go.
My brother-in-law repeats this name from out of the blue a couple weeks ago in addressing me. I let this go.
A wedding this weekend involves these persons, and I am prepared not to tolerate ANYTHING. But I get caught up playing this out in my mind, and realize the loss of energy. When you did FORMAL MAGIC "It is Him or His Rock Star Suit," I SAW how small the person was to be managed with reprisal--- persons tend to make monsters out of things----which was happening to me.
Of course you helped me. But I did not like the scenario of displacing the person, because of the scene it really would likely be. I am not controlled enough to ignore an insult again (nor do I want to be). So essentially I play the hand ahead of time--which feels totally weak to me, telling my sister of my issue and make sure that this person steer clear of me. In reason this makes sense to me--- but that's about it.
Ironically, the insult involved the person's snide remark when I was asking someone else if they knew of Carlos Castaneda.
I was going to visit intent of making the person feel ill next week if rude again (Which for whatever reason, I now felt capable of. THEN I learn from the sister in this exchange that he already has pancreatic cancer. I told my sister he would not be feeling too good later this week, because I really had already gone there in my mind with that.)
That this is what I am doing with 'new' energy does not make me happy. Yet, I KNOW NOT TO reduce things to its manifestations. When I met emptiness, Emotions were wild for two weeks, so I know it is about learning to handle 'new' energy.
The book, if it was in paper might have been viewed as per Don Juan MATUs OMG YOU ARE !!!! (ARE YOU???)
I was going to say used as toilet paper. But I don't know what going from the tonal to the nagual is--- but I think that is the symbolcic part is. If you read, you saw much was fiction. From the tonal aspect, did you like the fiction?
If you responded to my previous post I don't know this as I submit.
Here is a small story. (A year ago) I am seated at my mother's funeral after-dinner with persons outside the family that are friend's of a sister. One insults me by tagging me with an unflattering monicher and injects another insult later. (These are not overtly egregious--- but I know the disrespect.) I let this go.
My brother-in-law repeats this name from out of the blue a couple weeks ago in addressing me. I let this go.
A wedding this weekend involves these persons, and I am prepared not to tolerate ANYTHING. But I get caught up playing this out in my mind, and realize the loss of energy. When you did FORMAL MAGIC "It is Him or His Rock Star Suit," I SAW how small the person was to be managed with reprisal--- persons tend to make monsters out of things----which was happening to me.
Of course you helped me. But I did not like the scenario of displacing the person, because of the scene it really would likely be. I am not controlled enough to ignore an insult again (nor do I want to be). So essentially I play the hand ahead of time--which feels totally weak to me, telling my sister of my issue and make sure that this person steer clear of me. In reason this makes sense to me--- but that's about it.
Ironically, the insult involved the person's snide remark when I was asking someone else if they knew of Carlos Castaneda.
I was going to visit intent of making the person feel ill next week if rude again (Which for whatever reason, I now felt capable of. THEN I learn from the sister in this exchange that he already has pancreatic cancer. I told my sister he would not be feeling too good later this week, because I really had already gone there in my mind with that.)
That this is what I am doing with 'new' energy does not make me happy. Yet, I KNOW NOT TO reduce things to its manifestations. When I met emptiness, Emotions were wild for two weeks, so I know it is about learning to handle 'new' energy.
The book, if it was in paper might have been viewed as per Don Juan MATUs OMG YOU ARE !!!! (ARE YOU???)
I was going to say used as toilet paper. But I don't know what going from the tonal to the nagual is--- but I think that is the symbolcic part is. If you read, you saw much was fiction. From the tonal aspect, did you like the fiction?
If you responded to my previous post I don't know this as I submit.