09-02-2014, 12:01 AM
Serloco, I finally understand PERFECTLY what was happening at the wedding reception. Once I made up my mind to project my world AND DID NOT BACK DOWN people were stuck (or I stuck them in rolls of old imaging).
The persons that stole my energy, even my dignity, were completely afraid and went on the offensive, and from what I know behind my back. What happened as it unfolded should have mortified me, but these sisters with money and reputation defining my place DID NOT HAPPEN.
I could not understand why my wife acted exactly the opposite of what I would expect (A linear movement starting with anger towards tomorrow's divorce papers) NO, I scared the people shitless that were my confrontations, and lifted the person's who were genuine goodness to me high to the sky.
When my wife tried to move back the other direction of usual disrespect, I vocalized the flavor of the situation above, and realized to stay my position. THAT is when it became crystal clear. The confrontation with my daughter was messy, BUT she would not leave me go-- AND finally hugged me-- something I tried to get from her for many years.
I kept telling myself if I had to do it over, I would have done EVERYTHING exactly the same. I realized WHY that was true. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST (LAUGHING SERIOUSLY THOUGH HELP ME
The persons that stole my energy, even my dignity, were completely afraid and went on the offensive, and from what I know behind my back. What happened as it unfolded should have mortified me, but these sisters with money and reputation defining my place DID NOT HAPPEN.
I could not understand why my wife acted exactly the opposite of what I would expect (A linear movement starting with anger towards tomorrow's divorce papers) NO, I scared the people shitless that were my confrontations, and lifted the person's who were genuine goodness to me high to the sky.
When my wife tried to move back the other direction of usual disrespect, I vocalized the flavor of the situation above, and realized to stay my position. THAT is when it became crystal clear. The confrontation with my daughter was messy, BUT she would not leave me go-- AND finally hugged me-- something I tried to get from her for many years.
I kept telling myself if I had to do it over, I would have done EVERYTHING exactly the same. I realized WHY that was true. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST (LAUGHING SERIOUSLY THOUGH HELP ME