09-10-2014, 12:02 AM
billy wrote:Serloco, I finally understand PERFECTLY what was happening at the wedding reception. Once I made up my mind to project my world AND DID NOT BACK DOWN people were stuck (or I stuck them in rolls of old imaging).
The persons that stole my energy, even my dignity, were completely afraid and went on the offensive, and from what I know behind my back. What happened as it unfolded should have mortified me, but these sisters with money and reputation defining my place DID NOT HAPPEN.
I could not understand why my wife acted exactly the opposite of what I would expect (A linear movement starting with anger towards tomorrow's divorce papers) NO, I scared the people shitless that were my confrontations, and lifted the person's who were genuine goodness to me high to the sky.
When my wife tried to move back the other direction of usual disrespect, I vocalized the flavor of the situation above, and realized to stay my position. THAT is when it became crystal clear. The confrontation with my daughter was messy, BUT she would not leave me go-- AND finally hugged me-- something I tried to get from her for many years.
I kept telling myself if I had to do it over, I would have done EVERYTHING exactly the same. I realized WHY that was true. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST (LAUGHING SERIOUSLY THOUGH HELP MEYeah it can be easy to reset our old imagery. These are the items of our world, and they are all the values that our tonal knows of. One of the teachings in dreaming i use as a teaching in stalking. They are not separate. Focus onto any item, person, place or thing, even feelings, abstract ideas etc. And examine each element closely, and all the values that make it what it is. See this is all inside your attention and is connecting and forming your world around you, aligning it into it's form. Attention is a wonderous thing and it can focus onto any element of reality, or energy that it seeks to focus on. It does it all the time. You can focus on the elements of any object in your reality and begin to form the energy inside of yourself, reforming your knowledge of any particular thing. There is a position of awareness in this practice that sees as your idea shifts so does the thing itself change. It takes some stalking and gaining power in this ability to set any object into the dream you wish in any way you wish it to be. Even your awareness of what reality is can shift inside your attention, and your attention itself is the bridge to this formation or alignment/manifestation(however you see it). The value you set is the value you align. Any knowledge you hear and follow, activate, becomes the new addition to your enegetic flow-play. stage set, etc. Just by being aware in this way you can know the battlefield before you enter it, if it is a battlefield you are setting. You should know the energies active in the moment if you listen and look at them. And even as you do this you are setting the moment, and working with the energies present. It takes practice to be able to weave at will, and you need connection to all things directly, through your own attention. You need now, without separation, without then, or apart. You will always set the future and the past through the now. With direct connection a simple answer of energetic awareness to any problem will be passed imeidatiely to any source present and be voiced and acted upon right away, from the moment it was set into the stream of active consciousness. A stalker can thus sit behind the scenes and direct the play etirely. Using his own attention and awareness to move the play along. To manifest the form. Time is the essence of attention. Now is where you stand and the place from which you will enter out from and into the next setting. The next setting is within you now if you look closely you can see it. It is the values of your attention as you focus onto anything. You can even clear them entirely, and refill them. Absorb them, copy them, retain them, set them free, reform them, let them be, leave them and reenter from nothing something new. But the course is in your attention right now. Reality will form around you, and into you, to make active this light.
The persons that stole my energy, even my dignity, were completely afraid and went on the offensive, and from what I know behind my back. What happened as it unfolded should have mortified me, but these sisters with money and reputation defining my place DID NOT HAPPEN.
I could not understand why my wife acted exactly the opposite of what I would expect (A linear movement starting with anger towards tomorrow's divorce papers) NO, I scared the people shitless that were my confrontations, and lifted the person's who were genuine goodness to me high to the sky.
When my wife tried to move back the other direction of usual disrespect, I vocalized the flavor of the situation above, and realized to stay my position. THAT is when it became crystal clear. The confrontation with my daughter was messy, BUT she would not leave me go-- AND finally hugged me-- something I tried to get from her for many years.
I kept telling myself if I had to do it over, I would have done EVERYTHING exactly the same. I realized WHY that was true. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST (LAUGHING SERIOUSLY THOUGH HELP MEYeah it can be easy to reset our old imagery. These are the items of our world, and they are all the values that our tonal knows of. One of the teachings in dreaming i use as a teaching in stalking. They are not separate. Focus onto any item, person, place or thing, even feelings, abstract ideas etc. And examine each element closely, and all the values that make it what it is. See this is all inside your attention and is connecting and forming your world around you, aligning it into it's form. Attention is a wonderous thing and it can focus onto any element of reality, or energy that it seeks to focus on. It does it all the time. You can focus on the elements of any object in your reality and begin to form the energy inside of yourself, reforming your knowledge of any particular thing. There is a position of awareness in this practice that sees as your idea shifts so does the thing itself change. It takes some stalking and gaining power in this ability to set any object into the dream you wish in any way you wish it to be. Even your awareness of what reality is can shift inside your attention, and your attention itself is the bridge to this formation or alignment/manifestation(however you see it). The value you set is the value you align. Any knowledge you hear and follow, activate, becomes the new addition to your enegetic flow-play. stage set, etc. Just by being aware in this way you can know the battlefield before you enter it, if it is a battlefield you are setting. You should know the energies active in the moment if you listen and look at them. And even as you do this you are setting the moment, and working with the energies present. It takes practice to be able to weave at will, and you need connection to all things directly, through your own attention. You need now, without separation, without then, or apart. You will always set the future and the past through the now. With direct connection a simple answer of energetic awareness to any problem will be passed imeidatiely to any source present and be voiced and acted upon right away, from the moment it was set into the stream of active consciousness. A stalker can thus sit behind the scenes and direct the play etirely. Using his own attention and awareness to move the play along. To manifest the form. Time is the essence of attention. Now is where you stand and the place from which you will enter out from and into the next setting. The next setting is within you now if you look closely you can see it. It is the values of your attention as you focus onto anything. You can even clear them entirely, and refill them. Absorb them, copy them, retain them, set them free, reform them, let them be, leave them and reenter from nothing something new. But the course is in your attention right now. Reality will form around you, and into you, to make active this light.