09-27-2014, 12:03 AM
There has been a run of unprecedented blue sky for my area. Yesterday, I am looking out and see a tiny lone cloud. I watch, and as is is out of view, another one appears. Then one with unformed shape and larger (yet small), and a variety move across only ONE in view at a time. AND, oddly they are move directly east to west which is a rarity in itself. I start talking to the clouds, remembering that they have energy. The largest and most solidly formed circular cloud is in front and I ask for its power and intend to use it--that the coldness my daughter has been conveying to my wife for a week is changed. After about a minute the cloud reaches a tree top, and whereas I watched the others (much much smaller) pass to the side into view, this one seemed to linger a bit behind the green. --and I realize as I ask from it, the cloud is dissipating and it does not appear again as when the others passed the tree. I have never seen anything like that before in my life--though to be frank, I was not amazed. Then the phone rings---it is my daughter calling my wife with a completely warm upbeat demeanor. I don't think if Obama showed up and inserted a flute up his rear end and played Dixie music would it surprise me--because that's how I am.
Living in a moment of grace or spirit of a kindred spirit is a totally different thing--THAT is TASTY. I SEE (GET) that from you (only the third individual in a lifetime who could meaningfully relate to me---One, a very very aware black man, spoke words of meaning well-timed. We were watching Saving Private Ryan at a theatre and there was an intermission, and a Jewel Kilcher song was played (not sure if it was on the screen), and he stated one word--Jewel as if it were to mean something. I drew a complete blank, which is not the way it worked. You brought Jewel to light, and it did not connect at first.
I have been tightening my self {especially by abstaining from sexual play (which normally is a major, if not sometimes impossible undertaking)} --and I came to a point where the 'spiritual' concept of once handing over a Jewel as a commitment to GOD (A PATH), it is in bad faith to think that you keep recommitting as if to keep handing over the same Jewel again and again (That is, one finally has to realize it is good enough to have chosen the FIRST time. {This is similar to the analogy given, that once on a journey to a specific destination, it is not necessary to tell one's self you are going there. You KNOW--and now you eat, see, rest, experience without need of reminder, but without losing the essence of doing what you INTEND.
I AM doing PEACE AND JOY on my way to nothing--feeding like a pig on whatever is in front INCLUDING the pain. We are capable of having compassion and much much more I do believe (D).
Should I not be able to pay the commensurate price--I will suffer anyway. This is part of what you want to teach me? AND...
Living in a moment of grace or spirit of a kindred spirit is a totally different thing--THAT is TASTY. I SEE (GET) that from you (only the third individual in a lifetime who could meaningfully relate to me---One, a very very aware black man, spoke words of meaning well-timed. We were watching Saving Private Ryan at a theatre and there was an intermission, and a Jewel Kilcher song was played (not sure if it was on the screen), and he stated one word--Jewel as if it were to mean something. I drew a complete blank, which is not the way it worked. You brought Jewel to light, and it did not connect at first.
I have been tightening my self {especially by abstaining from sexual play (which normally is a major, if not sometimes impossible undertaking)} --and I came to a point where the 'spiritual' concept of once handing over a Jewel as a commitment to GOD (A PATH), it is in bad faith to think that you keep recommitting as if to keep handing over the same Jewel again and again (That is, one finally has to realize it is good enough to have chosen the FIRST time. {This is similar to the analogy given, that once on a journey to a specific destination, it is not necessary to tell one's self you are going there. You KNOW--and now you eat, see, rest, experience without need of reminder, but without losing the essence of doing what you INTEND.
I AM doing PEACE AND JOY on my way to nothing--feeding like a pig on whatever is in front INCLUDING the pain. We are capable of having compassion and much much more I do believe (D).
Should I not be able to pay the commensurate price--I will suffer anyway. This is part of what you want to teach me? AND...