09-28-2014, 12:03 AM
Your post #254 should be ample enough for me, but I do move slowly. I never listened to anyone in my life with the exception of three (you the third). I trust my judgement to take every word you say as important, as I did the previous two in matters of awareness.
The fact that I really did unecessarily terribly f*** up a lot with my daughter and wife in one night is impinging. WOW!
I only surmise that I never could have handled this before, but my states of mind are incongruously colliding. I could come out the 'better' for it, or be eaten alive. The foreign installations in this respect are fully in play.
Make everything a choice is able to hold some sway-- However, every person manifestation existing right now is persistently telling me I have f***ed up irrevocably. I have equal persistence, but JESUS, I am REALLY 'forced' into make everyThing a choice mode for sanity and survival. I am not so stupid, as to realize I NEED your guidance.
The fact that I really did unecessarily terribly f*** up a lot with my daughter and wife in one night is impinging. WOW!
I only surmise that I never could have handled this before, but my states of mind are incongruously colliding. I could come out the 'better' for it, or be eaten alive. The foreign installations in this respect are fully in play.
Make everything a choice is able to hold some sway-- However, every person manifestation existing right now is persistently telling me I have f***ed up irrevocably. I have equal persistence, but JESUS, I am REALLY 'forced' into make everyThing a choice mode for sanity and survival. I am not so stupid, as to realize I NEED your guidance.