09-30-2014, 12:03 AM
Omit that I used shame as a medium--the development goes past that and practically mirrors you. My writing is about moving from lively isolation (in this case via a profound sense of worthlessness or shame that is a self conscious withdrawal for one's own objective purpose) into emptiness and its energy.
I wanted you to tell me where the points were weak, strong. I am talking of a process of intended soulful self-negation that is objectified in itself to draw out counter-intuitive resource. I get clear about this as you read. I often used shame as a prop to take the reader down. I did not live a life of shame generally to be sure. Think how open I had to be to revisit that **** when recapitulating.
Think of what I lay out later as what you called fasting. You are a dancer. I never could be, nor do I want to dance. I am a lover of my isolation when I am on. I had to reread my own thoughts to get back on. I can use whatever I am given-- even this heavy blob of negativity once I set myself. I have no bent for pervasive conjurring or dancing, but I like yours.
I wanted you to tell me where the points were weak, strong. I am talking of a process of intended soulful self-negation that is objectified in itself to draw out counter-intuitive resource. I get clear about this as you read. I often used shame as a prop to take the reader down. I did not live a life of shame generally to be sure. Think how open I had to be to revisit that **** when recapitulating.
Think of what I lay out later as what you called fasting. You are a dancer. I never could be, nor do I want to dance. I am a lover of my isolation when I am on. I had to reread my own thoughts to get back on. I can use whatever I am given-- even this heavy blob of negativity once I set myself. I have no bent for pervasive conjurring or dancing, but I like yours.