Casual Conversation

[Billy]

In sciences (esp. biophysiology), from early dna forms to the evolved animals, sex-life organisms have three acquired & required traits.
1) Attraction
2) Arousal
3) Approach
Every human characteristic and emotion HAD to evolve from these traits.  The success rate for possible life as from progenitorship is infinitesimally small.  Our own existence is practically a miracle.

In natural selection, most animals required an adaptation to trait # 3 (for survival).  This adaptation, converse to Approach (coitus) is Withdrawal.  
Withdrawal was necessary because typically the dominant or fittest male ruled a subset of species to the point of necessary compliance.

This is where developed philosophy concerning my existence found home.  There is the drive to recreate self & to live on, yet immediate survival overrules.  Withdrawal not only became instinctual in evolution, but also a physiological part of the human brain.  

I did a good amount of research on apes as our predecessors, and made the connection, that to approach or withdraw fosters all the other emotions.  (I believe Science supports this)

The two primary self-conscious emotions are pride and shame.  

CLEARLY pride evolved from the approach trait.  Its EXACT body language in apes is inherent in humans  today, and there is actually a specific genome discovered that distinguishes the dominant apes.

CLEARLY shame evolved from the withdrawal trait.  Its EXACT body language in apes is also manifested in humans.

Besides study in neuroscience, studies of the blind also show that pride and shame are not electives that are learned.  Humans are naturally wired for both.

When I did recapitulation, I began to observe withdrawal.  (I already had a bent against approach, and realistically based on facts, very very few human males are majority alpha.  By and large, both female and male humans are recessive). 
 
I am what I am.  So I followed my logic and withdrawal at the phenomenological roots onward.  OMG, approach (pride) and withdrawal (shame) are so effing primal, so effing deep.  The extent of existential feel I explored would blow most person's minds (AND, I visited pride and shame at both extremes).   Approach requires much more energy in maintenance, but I DO love it too.
Withdrawal at the phenomenological level brings the existential equation to the forefront.  IF staying alive NOW is more important to most species than procreating, could it not be true also that one is better off choosing non-existence?  
   The way to make the equation tangible is to reduce it a concept labeled worthlessness.  In conventional understanding, I would be 'worth more' if I am capable of creating life, I would be 'worth less' if I were inadequate to do so.  To become 'worth less' this way and then all which ways in imagination engenders a sense of true worthlessness & ultimately EMPTINESS (Emptiness of purpose definitely, and of emptiness of meaning existentially).  

You go out in phenomenolgy (approach).  I reduce it to nothing (withdrawal).   

BOTH can be very powerful energetically, energetically, energetically.  WTF!?  (wink)
We are not going to be friends serloco.  We are going to be, and 'Do' or 'not do' as you eloquently say.  I do love you though--as you understand that the same way I do.

I could be very penetrating of your conceptualness to suit your own devices.  You are a great and generous benefactor.  Per Juan Matus: I am 'wide awake', have balance of 'fear and respect' and have 'absolute assurance.'  I could not have said that the same way two months ago.  Thank you.

P.S.  To those 'friending' me.  I don't WANT friends lol.