Casual Conversation

[serloco]

A ruse eh?? You see clearly, you are very sharp. It was true though, but firstly it was a ruse indeed.. I mean I am looing for the right girl yes, but I needed to post that to harness the correct energy for that girl.. not from you guys or the readers but for her.. Sometimes I forget that the clouds are down, and they see me clearly, and know who I am inside, and sometimes they don't and everything about e is a secret.. I like both, and I like that they can forget too.. Bad maybe, I had my battles with morality indeed in that regard, and so I let people remember our trip to the naguak sometimes.. I am Silvio Manual.. I am the will. Perhaps I will disappear soon, I feel I will again.. It is a refelction you know.. When I found my way into the nagual for the first time I learned so many things, including how to make the forget me, even when they all knew everything about me.. It was like flipping through and into two dimensions. Really it was many dimensions that were fluid and constantly shifting.. I lost everyone then.. Fell far away into an IOB world.. can't get home anymore... It looks like home, but all the variables have changed.. I see IOBS.. even my parents move to my will and awareness. The books speak to me often about me, I remember casting all my feats of power into them,. they teach me too.. I am crazy now.. ***, I hate it when I loose my sanity these days.. I like it now... I can escape.. So important is escape.. I will not try to go home tho... I wil go further into the nagual this time.. I need my insanity.. It is gold and my allies love it.. Even my rage they love.. They can be all mushy ad gushy for me, loving, but when I get upset they run and hide and some of them come into my world and love it, it changes allies, and my haters come it and punish. Not me, but my enemies.. I can look at complete strangers and shift the into ally positions and then they start casting evils onto my enemies. I learnt it as an angel first when the allies where siphonig my sorrow from me by hurtng people.. it was like hell to me, and so I shifted onto them and they started hurting each other instead.. then i shifted omre and it was only my enemies they hurt.. I can save them, but some I do not save anymore.. I let them hurt. I let them fight.. I can cast onto people too, and make them feel love inside and solutions.. But I like it sometimes that they don't and feel my wrath inside towards my evil enemies.. They suffer for me and they do it indifferently... If I think they ddo not want to suffer then they suffer worse.. but being who I am I can make them want it too, jsut a shift of awareness. you got me talking about my evil side... y angel side doesn;t want it... my demon side does... I can spit my awarenesss to different positions and have my observer decide.. It says some deserve to suffer and some do not.. Decision made, the evil will suffer.. and the good will reign..