01-13-2015, 12:09 AM
My autonomy is impeccable--yes there is my mind {with body (flipper)}, but there is also the world which I separate (or is separate)--but which is my RICH, heightened, and SENSATIONAL source of aliveness.
The 'world' is not germane to anything else for me. The distinction of anything happening in the world (which I have reduced to you for my own clarity, (and in this particular, you telling me about omni) has no meaning--it is irrelevant/ excepting that it be a mechanical toy that comes with batteries but no instructions on how to use it. (oh I do want your instructons still)
I don't really PLAY with toys--I PLAY with myself (laughing), and my imagination in every sense. Tell me S. how can omni (or not omni) not be limited to my sense of purpose--in my case artful pretending. I don't want to exist or not exist, and truthfully I would *** any conventional notion of God & his Demon spinoffs in the ass. Actually, I would *** the REAL God up his ass too with a good deal of disdain. I love my disposition to choose negation, worthless, base, disgusting, fucked up undertones that remain in my heart. They are leftovers from a fucking empty soul. AND, I would choose to have it no ther way. (REALLY DELICIOUS)
On second thought, God isn't even worth fucking up the ass. Are we having fun yet? But you S. are completely welcome, and I want it no ther way for now. Give me omni-- YES I learned from you that I like power.
Yet I have no desire for it or anything of the world. I HAVE DESIRE PERIOD!!! Oh yeah I burn, my DESIRE consumes me in the best way.
My wife heard me from another room my spontaneous "Ummm (Yummy). She happened in and noted my sound of pleasure, (I was eating). "Oh, your salad is good?" I answered it isn't the salad.
(wife's pause & something of, "What?") "My life is yummy," I said. (has been much so for many years)
Anyone could identify the rejection by one's own daughter as 'unbearably' painful. So, I framed the 'pain' from my daughter since the very beginning with you intentionally for contrast. Some of the pain was 'unbearably painful.'
Nevertheless, in the end I relished it the way no one else could. (I FEED on negatives (and positives too). Negative manifestation ultimately does not take energy from me, it gives me energy in spades. And of course, the manifestations drift toward the conventionally pleasant-- as if it matters--my daughter's new disposition clearly reflects more positively than it did before the wedding. But I am speaking of a principle here. Existence sucks for others, it could suck for me too. But I know to acquiesce to the world and love ****. And, I figuratively do. If you count licking my wife's ****, I like it literally too!
The 'world' is not germane to anything else for me. The distinction of anything happening in the world (which I have reduced to you for my own clarity, (and in this particular, you telling me about omni) has no meaning--it is irrelevant/ excepting that it be a mechanical toy that comes with batteries but no instructions on how to use it. (oh I do want your instructons still)
I don't really PLAY with toys--I PLAY with myself (laughing), and my imagination in every sense. Tell me S. how can omni (or not omni) not be limited to my sense of purpose--in my case artful pretending. I don't want to exist or not exist, and truthfully I would *** any conventional notion of God & his Demon spinoffs in the ass. Actually, I would *** the REAL God up his ass too with a good deal of disdain. I love my disposition to choose negation, worthless, base, disgusting, fucked up undertones that remain in my heart. They are leftovers from a fucking empty soul. AND, I would choose to have it no ther way. (REALLY DELICIOUS)
On second thought, God isn't even worth fucking up the ass. Are we having fun yet? But you S. are completely welcome, and I want it no ther way for now. Give me omni-- YES I learned from you that I like power.
Yet I have no desire for it or anything of the world. I HAVE DESIRE PERIOD!!! Oh yeah I burn, my DESIRE consumes me in the best way.
My wife heard me from another room my spontaneous "Ummm (Yummy). She happened in and noted my sound of pleasure, (I was eating). "Oh, your salad is good?" I answered it isn't the salad.
(wife's pause & something of, "What?") "My life is yummy," I said. (has been much so for many years)
Anyone could identify the rejection by one's own daughter as 'unbearably' painful. So, I framed the 'pain' from my daughter since the very beginning with you intentionally for contrast. Some of the pain was 'unbearably painful.'
Nevertheless, in the end I relished it the way no one else could. (I FEED on negatives (and positives too). Negative manifestation ultimately does not take energy from me, it gives me energy in spades. And of course, the manifestations drift toward the conventionally pleasant-- as if it matters--my daughter's new disposition clearly reflects more positively than it did before the wedding. But I am speaking of a principle here. Existence sucks for others, it could suck for me too. But I know to acquiesce to the world and love ****. And, I figuratively do. If you count licking my wife's ****, I like it literally too!