Casual Conversation

[Billy]

You're not leaving--you activating and accentuating separation only makes bs more sensationally alive.  Wait until I begin to unleash my imagination.  Oh, you will like that.  (it will be a while until then--say spring ha ha)

You wanted a reference for my wife Susan to give her power--I asked her for something that identified her.  She told me she is "Goodness itself."
I asked her a year ago to name the thing in her life that made her most ashamed--she told me it was, "that she thought she was better than everyone else."   She paused... "but, I am better than everyone else."  (She was being serious-lol   Deal with THAT)

When I registered that you were 'leaving,' I piled on all kinds of messing with a downer  (you know, SEE how it could depress me, not contrived, just naturally going with it).   (unintentionally)>I went without sleep--I lost energy, drank wine--lost more energy.  Masturbated 5-6 times-- a no no for me when down--it nearly made my body sick, and I was depleted--thought I was completely had.  Then did not sleep well, again last night.  I felt groggy for a bit this morning, returned to routine and SAW that I was happy, energetic billy.

This is you s.