12-15-2011, 12:00 AM
Reading that account, the story has a new meaning to me. If the baby was already dead or going to die. then its a gift that gave the form, and maybe the soul life. and not to be overly grandiouse, it reminds me of me. Because they told my mom, weeks before i was born, I was either dead or would be born dead, they couldnt find a heartbeat. So premature, just to flush the husk with pills. and she refused, because she had been promised a child, after being told she could not. and iw as born and struggled the first six months but am more or less sound. and she as able to have 2 more children. Thats why i had the dream about it i had to send nagual lone wolf. It may have not even been about the event, maybe it was about how it touched questions ive always had. To condemn the tenet, or judge, be horrified at the idea of using a baby, was to condem myself, to say my own improbable existance must be or could be somehow evil, if i accept it wasnt all just tonal randomness. Which i could not do soa s easily, once i spoke to my mom within the last few years about it. And thats as deep an issue as they come...from the womb no less. Thank you for the new perspective on the tenet and indirectly myself.