Not Doing-what does it mean?

[Lea]

The most interesting thing for me about not doing is the feeling that anything is possible.  This for me has become a feeling I have gotten lost in because anything is possible does not go with the part of who I am that is anchored in the past.  I realized for example that I don't even believe any of the sorcerers story's.  I realized that if I did believe them I would already know how to be Don Juan or who ever.  I would already know how to invert my assemblage point and become a women or a crow, if I believed it to be possible I would have to know how to do it.  In my book a nice idea is not a belief.  I think that believing is a necessary act of survival.  I think that the real mystery and work comes with the inheritance of being human.  Being born in the town I was born, raised by the parents I was raised.  For me my past is my doing and true learning is the undoing and intelligent reconditioning of my feelings.  We are here now and to me that is a mystery.
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