08-06-2005, 12:00 AM
What I forgot to mention I realized way after the fact. The orb usually was on the fireplace in the background, sometimes it was above the dogs and her together, that picture there was the only time it was actually on her.
Now I can fully accept the concept of what you are saying Doc. However because it is dealing with her I find it very hard to believe. I have mentioned this girl before, for 6 years she has been my copycat, single white female, or to put it is a better way... she has emulated me so strongly that people now are mistaken her for me at times. She is my doppleganger.
At this point I am in the midst of a project with her that she is unaware of. I am trying to see how far she will go to copy my Illusion. I am convincing her that I am turning "preppy" for lack of a better word. And for the pretentious gothic community that is a big no-no. However I could give two shits about which typecaste a person is in, but to her and the other girl that is my clone in Tampa it is a big deal. So far she is taking rhe bait with no questions asked. It is seeming almost too easy, and that is scary.
It is to the point I refuse to go shopping with her anymore because she is in such a competition with me that she makes it no fun, she literally will jump in front of me to grab something she saw me eyeballing. If I got a new outfit, she asks where I got it and the next thing i know she has the exact thing, she changes her hair to look like me, she has tattoos of similar things in similar places on her lower body that I do, she has peircings the same spots as mine and has the same car as me. People ask if we are sisters or twins all the time, if they don't just mistake her for me all together. At first I did not notice it, but others brought it to my attention and now it just creeps me out.
I have tried telling her directly what I think she is doing, she says we just have similar interests. I have ended the friendship before, I have tried to be too boring fo her. It almost is like it takes less energy to maintain the ****-tastic relationship we have than to end the relationship again. I have been there before and it was so much work.
I have felt her envy, her jealousy, and her resentment towards me so strongly before that it felt like I have slammed into a brick wall and had to immediately do energy work to negate the feeling. I see that she buys into my Illusion so much, because of her lack of personality, that she tries to emulate mine and become me. But she only captures the external, not the internal. I have been trying to figure out ways to break the bond...or her desire to be connected to me...because quite frankly her energy is too heavy for me to deal with. Now she can be fun, but that fun has a heavy price when I feel like I am being stalked.
I took those pictures of her to return a favor of her taking pictures of my ferrets with me. I do hold favors and oaths strongly in this way. Even though really I didn;t want to be at her house, it figure it was a two hour ordeal and I can get out and be done with the favor rewturned. As I sat there in her room looking around while she got ready for the pics I noticed yet more clothes she has now that are just like mine that she does not wear in front of me, I noticed trinkets she has seen at my house that she too now has, and then I looked through ehr photo albums on the floor. I felt like I was in the lions den and was getting really creeped out. She had pictures of her and her friends at places I had introduced her to, and she was posed exactly like me in pictures she has seen of me in those exact spots. She is a mystery and a frustration, and I am at a loss with how to get her out of my life with out a huge confrontation, because as I said, that failed in the past.
So you see now why I say I find it VERY hard to believe that she has good energy, when I feel she is sucking me dry, and I feel her heaviness as well as others around her in Tampa. If you can offer some insite to this situation Doc, or anyone else, I would be much obliged. As I said, I am frustrated and I am ready to get her out of my life for good.
Now I can fully accept the concept of what you are saying Doc. However because it is dealing with her I find it very hard to believe. I have mentioned this girl before, for 6 years she has been my copycat, single white female, or to put it is a better way... she has emulated me so strongly that people now are mistaken her for me at times. She is my doppleganger.
At this point I am in the midst of a project with her that she is unaware of. I am trying to see how far she will go to copy my Illusion. I am convincing her that I am turning "preppy" for lack of a better word. And for the pretentious gothic community that is a big no-no. However I could give two shits about which typecaste a person is in, but to her and the other girl that is my clone in Tampa it is a big deal. So far she is taking rhe bait with no questions asked. It is seeming almost too easy, and that is scary.
It is to the point I refuse to go shopping with her anymore because she is in such a competition with me that she makes it no fun, she literally will jump in front of me to grab something she saw me eyeballing. If I got a new outfit, she asks where I got it and the next thing i know she has the exact thing, she changes her hair to look like me, she has tattoos of similar things in similar places on her lower body that I do, she has peircings the same spots as mine and has the same car as me. People ask if we are sisters or twins all the time, if they don't just mistake her for me all together. At first I did not notice it, but others brought it to my attention and now it just creeps me out.
I have tried telling her directly what I think she is doing, she says we just have similar interests. I have ended the friendship before, I have tried to be too boring fo her. It almost is like it takes less energy to maintain the ****-tastic relationship we have than to end the relationship again. I have been there before and it was so much work.
I have felt her envy, her jealousy, and her resentment towards me so strongly before that it felt like I have slammed into a brick wall and had to immediately do energy work to negate the feeling. I see that she buys into my Illusion so much, because of her lack of personality, that she tries to emulate mine and become me. But she only captures the external, not the internal. I have been trying to figure out ways to break the bond...or her desire to be connected to me...because quite frankly her energy is too heavy for me to deal with. Now she can be fun, but that fun has a heavy price when I feel like I am being stalked.
I took those pictures of her to return a favor of her taking pictures of my ferrets with me. I do hold favors and oaths strongly in this way. Even though really I didn;t want to be at her house, it figure it was a two hour ordeal and I can get out and be done with the favor rewturned. As I sat there in her room looking around while she got ready for the pics I noticed yet more clothes she has now that are just like mine that she does not wear in front of me, I noticed trinkets she has seen at my house that she too now has, and then I looked through ehr photo albums on the floor. I felt like I was in the lions den and was getting really creeped out. She had pictures of her and her friends at places I had introduced her to, and she was posed exactly like me in pictures she has seen of me in those exact spots. She is a mystery and a frustration, and I am at a loss with how to get her out of my life with out a huge confrontation, because as I said, that failed in the past.
So you see now why I say I find it VERY hard to believe that she has good energy, when I feel she is sucking me dry, and I feel her heaviness as well as others around her in Tampa. If you can offer some insite to this situation Doc, or anyone else, I would be much obliged. As I said, I am frustrated and I am ready to get her out of my life for good.