08-14-2010, 12:06 AM
Ha Ha Wei !
I chuckle because I have never had a problem 'finding' a Tyrant, petty or otherwise. I was born into a family of them, and have navigated an obstacle course of tyrants ever since!
The difference now, is that I gave up two things concerning them. One, I quit the Christian doctrine of giving love. The 'do unto others' thing. Now, if I do the right thing, it is because it is the right thing to do by my personal discernment, public opinion be damned. This is Controlled Folly, for my acts may make no difference, but I do them anyway. (I admit to occasionally getting attached, anyway) Secondly, I have been able to come to terms with GUILT to some extent! Both before and within my knowledge of the Nagual, I have confronted those behaviors that were, and are, abusive. It is a work in progress. How surprising it is to learn that a tyrant lives within oneself! However, at the same time, I have learned that strategies of deception are necessary for survival. Tyrants lie all the time. Why should I be held to a doctrine of honesty that only puts weapons in the hands of an enemy? A pristine honesty was the downfall of many an Indigenous around the world in the face of imperialism. They were surprised when treaties weren't honored.
Some people, in their narcissism, think they fool me. I can SEE through better than ever and don't waste my energy trying to correct them unless absolutely necessary.
Faith isn't blind. Real faith is rooted in experience, even in dreams.
The right to live free from angry outbursts and rage is another rule of Verbal Abuse. Such is the behavior of those with no personal Power , but plenty of self-pity.
I chuckle because I have never had a problem 'finding' a Tyrant, petty or otherwise. I was born into a family of them, and have navigated an obstacle course of tyrants ever since!
The difference now, is that I gave up two things concerning them. One, I quit the Christian doctrine of giving love. The 'do unto others' thing. Now, if I do the right thing, it is because it is the right thing to do by my personal discernment, public opinion be damned. This is Controlled Folly, for my acts may make no difference, but I do them anyway. (I admit to occasionally getting attached, anyway) Secondly, I have been able to come to terms with GUILT to some extent! Both before and within my knowledge of the Nagual, I have confronted those behaviors that were, and are, abusive. It is a work in progress. How surprising it is to learn that a tyrant lives within oneself! However, at the same time, I have learned that strategies of deception are necessary for survival. Tyrants lie all the time. Why should I be held to a doctrine of honesty that only puts weapons in the hands of an enemy? A pristine honesty was the downfall of many an Indigenous around the world in the face of imperialism. They were surprised when treaties weren't honored.
Some people, in their narcissism, think they fool me. I can SEE through better than ever and don't waste my energy trying to correct them unless absolutely necessary.
Faith isn't blind. Real faith is rooted in experience, even in dreams.
The right to live free from angry outbursts and rage is another rule of Verbal Abuse. Such is the behavior of those with no personal Power , but plenty of self-pity.