10-03-2011, 12:02 AM
Back to my story: It was back in the early 1990's. I had burned from within and lost my human form. From the ashes came Lone Wolf, who I am to this day. I erased all personal history. I became a new being. I could read people's thoughts, I could see what they were blind to. I felt like all around me people were lost and seemed to be barely living. I couldn't talk to no one for they could barely see me and little along understand me. It was like being in a dream full time where everyone in the world were made up, puppets, lifeless, their eyes down, nothing in them ( still is like that to a degree to this day for me).I knew I could run circles around them, I could do anything and no one could even be aware of what I was doing. Women sought me out though, they somehow sensed I was different. I had many women in this time period for they would beg me to take them. This new wolf occasionally partaked (still had fire) but it wasn't my agenda. Too easy( being a nagua)l to seduce women with a touch of the hand. I was soon contacted by my teacher. I asked my teacher what was her name and she told me "Valencia." Valencia came to me in dreaming often. She was drawn to me after I had burned and then after reading the Art Of Dreaming, my awareness in dreaming had become full blown back then. Valencia looked like a mexican woman, she had long black hair, brown smooth skin, her eyes were crazy and I avoided them at all costs for they were blazing in dreaming, like lightning. Valencia showed me how to control my power, she laughed at my sexual side and even had weird sex with me that would often tumble me into other worlds. She showed me ways to control humans through voice and breath. I learned much from her in those years when Castaneda was still on this Earth. At her urging, I moved back to Arizona and worked for a communication company in the Phoenix area. It was hard coming down to the desert. Everything was so different. The people I didn't like, so many from the midwest. The people here also were very untrustworthy. A city full of predators and prey. I eventually moved to the outskirts and finally into the eastern mountains of this area. Here I found power was all around me. I began to hike in the mountains and the deserts. I loved to stand in the middle of the dustdevils, they were always attracted to me. The day came when Castaneda left. Valencia was upset and came to me. She reveal who she really was and told me she was the Tenant. I learned then that through my previous correspondence and dreaming with Carlos, I had formed a link to her. When I lost my human form, she found me in dreaming. I knew I stood out for I was no longer human even though I was alive in a human body. I learned to create the human dialogue. I learned to keep my mouth shut so that the humans would realize I was different. One still has to eat and live for power is great but it doesn't cook.