01-06-2011, 12:00 AM
Reading this creates both sadness and happiness in me. I perhaps falsely think a day will come when there is no more sadness...but now I doubt that. When I really consider fully about that belief, I know some of my happiest moments were born from extreme states of sadness. Like a phoenix rising from the ashes to be reborn...arrrgggghhh, its just having to endure/acquiescence to the sadness. Otherwise the phoenix will not rise again. But always and evermore it is JOY I seek. The warrior has to be careful...joy can be a tonal beckoning, a trap to root into a tonal exisitence and accept limitations along with. So is it really joy the warrior seeks? Or liberation and the joy in that? Being with Power is the JOY that always is new to itself. The Mystery.
Everywhere on my trip I kept ending up with the same bus seat...no 10, lol. Ok, one time I got 9, another 29. Omens have always been strong for me too. I am always being spoken to. Spirit/Power is always there for us. Tonal perception seeks to deny this...such as, if I had this dialog with a neighbor they would consider me mad. Then the neighborhood would agree with them, then the whole town. We are under siege by that which wants to stop our bid for power by making us forget power. So a warrior is never without a task at hand during his/her lifetime...never. And always with a star to steer by. We just need to remember that star is as much a Mystery too. When we lose our mystery, we gain the tonal. Why would we do this? To try to put an end to sadness by realizing order. So a warrior must embrace a world WITHOUT order at times. Not total chaos of course, but being like the phoenix and acquiescing to death, or sadness which I think are linked, so that a true resurrection can occur by knowing we will never solve the riddle. The most we can do is live within the riddle and be free, as we free from that which traps us. Belief is still important, a warrior does not relinquish all beliefs, but rather learns to hear the voice of Spirit and trust in it and the omens which are always there, always changing.
Everywhere on my trip I kept ending up with the same bus seat...no 10, lol. Ok, one time I got 9, another 29. Omens have always been strong for me too. I am always being spoken to. Spirit/Power is always there for us. Tonal perception seeks to deny this...such as, if I had this dialog with a neighbor they would consider me mad. Then the neighborhood would agree with them, then the whole town. We are under siege by that which wants to stop our bid for power by making us forget power. So a warrior is never without a task at hand during his/her lifetime...never. And always with a star to steer by. We just need to remember that star is as much a Mystery too. When we lose our mystery, we gain the tonal. Why would we do this? To try to put an end to sadness by realizing order. So a warrior must embrace a world WITHOUT order at times. Not total chaos of course, but being like the phoenix and acquiescing to death, or sadness which I think are linked, so that a true resurrection can occur by knowing we will never solve the riddle. The most we can do is live within the riddle and be free, as we free from that which traps us. Belief is still important, a warrior does not relinquish all beliefs, but rather learns to hear the voice of Spirit and trust in it and the omens which are always there, always changing.