05-29-2011, 12:00 AM
Jezebel wrote:But I have found joy even in sadness...because the awareness of the juxtaposition quality of our world, the very thing which makes awareness possible, I suspect...brings joy in just feeling everything to its fullest...not getting taken in or down by it but fully breathing it in and then exhaling it fully in order to make room for the next aromatic experience that is both life and death...
I know the feeling of great joy but where sadness comes. It is because I feel my body filling with love for everything, I am happy and sad at the same moment (but other times I feel this love and there is no sadness, just joy). It can happen in nature (but even elsewhere) and I see how it all is, whole and I feel I am alone. Something missing. Feeling alive. Feeling this tingling, the longing. I wish with all my heart and soul, I know I am part of the bigger and I know I am unique and that I can feel and see and experience through my own devices. Happy to experience it all but sad for my separate self. I feel reaching out for what makes me whole. Longing for it, beckoning it, here I am and I miss you so. I love it over here even when I am separate, but I feel I can be and wish to be whole.
I know the feeling of great joy but where sadness comes. It is because I feel my body filling with love for everything, I am happy and sad at the same moment (but other times I feel this love and there is no sadness, just joy). It can happen in nature (but even elsewhere) and I see how it all is, whole and I feel I am alone. Something missing. Feeling alive. Feeling this tingling, the longing. I wish with all my heart and soul, I know I am part of the bigger and I know I am unique and that I can feel and see and experience through my own devices. Happy to experience it all but sad for my separate self. I feel reaching out for what makes me whole. Longing for it, beckoning it, here I am and I miss you so. I love it over here even when I am separate, but I feel I can be and wish to be whole.