11-15-2009, 12:00 AM
I have reached this AP position myself, and it matches exactly what Lonewolf and Elias describe in the last two posts. I don't know why or what moved me
to this position at the time, but I knew right away what it was, and thankfully it was not brought about because I needed to face some unthinkable event. This
position also seems to be where I go when I have taken a power plant, which was a long time ago, but for me it is a very quiet place, introverted yet extremely
aware of what is happening, I felt bookish and reserved and had no need to talk at all. Just remembering it to describe it here brings it closer to my
awareness, in fact I hesitated writing this sentence for a long time because of the very nature of this ap position leaving me so silent.
But Blue Totem, your right, who wants to be cold hearted and severe? I don't, and sometimes I wonder what this former yoga loving, meditating, heart
chakra centric person is doing on the Nagualism path. All I know is that I am learning and experiencing it now because I am supposed to. Maybe tomorrow you
will be sitting at your kitchen table and a strange feeling will come over you and you will realize that you have reached the place of no pity, and it is not
as horrible as it sounds, and that the world doesn't end because for a few minutes you experience a state that separated you from your feelings, from the
flyer's mind, from the constant rattle of your internal dialog.
Don Juan says to always follow a path with heart, that that is what he does, and I don't think that anyone who is completely without compassion, without
love, would say this. I guess he has just seen through all illusion and his definition of compassion is very different from ours.
to this position at the time, but I knew right away what it was, and thankfully it was not brought about because I needed to face some unthinkable event. This
position also seems to be where I go when I have taken a power plant, which was a long time ago, but for me it is a very quiet place, introverted yet extremely
aware of what is happening, I felt bookish and reserved and had no need to talk at all. Just remembering it to describe it here brings it closer to my
awareness, in fact I hesitated writing this sentence for a long time because of the very nature of this ap position leaving me so silent.
But Blue Totem, your right, who wants to be cold hearted and severe? I don't, and sometimes I wonder what this former yoga loving, meditating, heart
chakra centric person is doing on the Nagualism path. All I know is that I am learning and experiencing it now because I am supposed to. Maybe tomorrow you
will be sitting at your kitchen table and a strange feeling will come over you and you will realize that you have reached the place of no pity, and it is not
as horrible as it sounds, and that the world doesn't end because for a few minutes you experience a state that separated you from your feelings, from the
flyer's mind, from the constant rattle of your internal dialog.
Don Juan says to always follow a path with heart, that that is what he does, and I don't think that anyone who is completely without compassion, without
love, would say this. I guess he has just seen through all illusion and his definition of compassion is very different from ours.