12-15-2008, 12:00 AM
when you first read your castenada books, and became mildly scared by the black inorganic snake, and spirit men,. particularly the sections on becoming lost
within the world of inorganics... Apiece of you was instananeously lost!,, within their world. I have seen men like puppets,, so mad they are in a cage of
fear, wound around a death defiers finger!... they control their lives not! they run from freakish place to freakish place! while their bodys move rigid with
terror ( in fact ive done it myself) , locked within their own eyes, behind their own scenes.,,spirit funnels and not much else, part begging for death,,1000%
lost;- there is no man without immpecability who can escape such a Trap!.... for it holds the rope that will pull you out!
strangeley enough.. its the part of you that became lost at the beginning that begs you to face your fear! and will pull you out only if you can find something
more terrifying than your own mad mad mad death,, that needs your heart beating to accomplish it!
when i first got to the edge itself! I tried to sever my being in the full flow of the direction it was facing... the enormity of a life travelling like an
arrow from a bow, over the edge in full force.( i was deranged in the london underground with only places to die in front of me, and i dont mean just the
tracks, i mean a city of "the end", "like dick wittington on acid") it was like staring death in the face and contemplating the absolute
grace of cutting my life off like a puppet of power!wether to live another hour or another twenty years was unknown, just to let go and never think
again....just a heart beating till the end!.... maybe thats what im doing now! A slave to the rythm divine!..
In truth severence from power is severence within power...and life includes power.. and life includes love.. and thats what i do now!
funny thing is i partly think i failed my test because im not dead! like the matrix thing! with the first jump that no-body ever makes.... but what do i do,?,
search for love or search for death?..(without being cliche'd immpeccability is the word used to decribe the meaning of both!)
This is an impossibly scary lesson.. use it wisely or not at all!! the dark path will just have you tip toeing in a puddle thinking your a scary person! and
not mush else! if you never find your demise you never challenge anything but your own imaginary superiority over others!!!!
I just want equality.. because i dont like Cowards who abuse children(,and women ,and family and men, and using violence,and hypnosis, and bad worx in
general)because it gives them "special powers"... when they could have claimed a hell of a lot more POWER through living honourably if only they
hadnt been so afraid!........... Whats left of your darkness is still within the jewel of immpecability!.. its the part of your life that isnt FREE (yet!)
LUCKILY its the middle bit!
Like i said earlier on another page, the only way to escape is to "shapeshift" Love is a creative force,,,,the only way to find your way out is to
love like your life depends on it! and the human form drops away! people who think shapeshifting means ANIMAL forms (unless they can correlate human love in
parralel with animal innocence) are not going to find i is the key!.
within the world of inorganics... Apiece of you was instananeously lost!,, within their world. I have seen men like puppets,, so mad they are in a cage of
fear, wound around a death defiers finger!... they control their lives not! they run from freakish place to freakish place! while their bodys move rigid with
terror ( in fact ive done it myself) , locked within their own eyes, behind their own scenes.,,spirit funnels and not much else, part begging for death,,1000%
lost;- there is no man without immpecability who can escape such a Trap!.... for it holds the rope that will pull you out!
strangeley enough.. its the part of you that became lost at the beginning that begs you to face your fear! and will pull you out only if you can find something
more terrifying than your own mad mad mad death,, that needs your heart beating to accomplish it!
when i first got to the edge itself! I tried to sever my being in the full flow of the direction it was facing... the enormity of a life travelling like an
arrow from a bow, over the edge in full force.( i was deranged in the london underground with only places to die in front of me, and i dont mean just the
tracks, i mean a city of "the end", "like dick wittington on acid") it was like staring death in the face and contemplating the absolute
grace of cutting my life off like a puppet of power!wether to live another hour or another twenty years was unknown, just to let go and never think
again....just a heart beating till the end!.... maybe thats what im doing now! A slave to the rythm divine!..
In truth severence from power is severence within power...and life includes power.. and life includes love.. and thats what i do now!
funny thing is i partly think i failed my test because im not dead! like the matrix thing! with the first jump that no-body ever makes.... but what do i do,?,
search for love or search for death?..(without being cliche'd immpeccability is the word used to decribe the meaning of both!)
This is an impossibly scary lesson.. use it wisely or not at all!! the dark path will just have you tip toeing in a puddle thinking your a scary person! and
not mush else! if you never find your demise you never challenge anything but your own imaginary superiority over others!!!!
I just want equality.. because i dont like Cowards who abuse children(,and women ,and family and men, and using violence,and hypnosis, and bad worx in
general)because it gives them "special powers"... when they could have claimed a hell of a lot more POWER through living honourably if only they
hadnt been so afraid!........... Whats left of your darkness is still within the jewel of immpecability!.. its the part of your life that isnt FREE (yet!)
LUCKILY its the middle bit!
Like i said earlier on another page, the only way to escape is to "shapeshift" Love is a creative force,,,,the only way to find your way out is to
love like your life depends on it! and the human form drops away! people who think shapeshifting means ANIMAL forms (unless they can correlate human love in
parralel with animal innocence) are not going to find i is the key!.