11-21-2005, 12:00 AM
re: they will test you....I am noticing this lately, that people I have never before met, are aggressive/abusive upon my first encounter with them. I am sorry to report that my usual reaction is defensiveness and anger...defending my precious self. I am making some progress, managing not be as reactive as in the past, and my body is staying calmer now--I used to have adrenaline surges during such encounters, enough to cause bodily tremors. Also I can "process" (recapitulate] such events much more quickly. Is this what Don Juan meant when he said we must be ever on our guard--not only of our own internal flyer{s}, but also of those in others, for they will try to sabotage us as they see us progress toward freedom?