The War and The Price.

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only when i reached near insanity could i truely accept that what a freind had told me was true.
i was amased that i found the fi in my dreams, in my nightmares, and sort to destroy it.
it took me a long time to work out how something inside your mind could be destroyed but it worked, it may not have been destoryed but it left me,
i can feel the same feelign i got from the f.i in my mother, she behaves erraticaly sometimes, getting extremely angery at small things, telling me its all my fault, i know this is not her.
once i commented on not wanting to fight with her deamons right now, and she became very silent before shouting some stupid remark up the stairs after me to compensate.
but anyway,
i returned to my house last weekend and threw all of my stuff out, i did not want to take 'anything' back with me but it seemed i was followed anyway,
the other night i dreampt of an f.i. which came in theguise of my mother, and extracted not fear but total anger from me, i tired to strangel its form in the dream, it was out of my controll.
ill update on what happens with this later.