08-17-2003, 12:00 AM
Holy **** Lone
"When you keep meeting the same one over and over in dreams then
you are being confronted!"
That was how I first got into all this, from the first dream nightmare I ever really remember that was vivid enuff to scare the **** out of me that it drew me to find out more. Every dream I had when I first started was being chased by this same burnt up guy... and one dream he actually smiled and I'll never forget it. I never faced him tho.. in my dream anyway...I faced him in my meditation,I guess he chose a bad time to show his face in my mind..or maybe I was just remembering but still... I fought him in my mind, it was kinda wierd...he was saying I'm here to HELP YOU, I'll help you if you help me type of stuff...LOL it was funny how he was pleading and begging, since it was him always the one putting fear in my heart thru my dreams...not sure if it was my imagination or what. Ever since then, the nightmares of him went away...it seemed a little to easy defeating him...I cant help but think maybe it was a trick...then I realized his only power was his cunning ability to hide himself..just had to recognize it and face it...yea those nightmares when away only to have nighmares of me constanly dying- and I read somewhere that death in dreams means something of the old is shedding for something new- But I dont die anymore in dreams, that thing you said about flying..hmm that sounds pretty cool, I only flew a couple times but not out of my will, I see something in the sky that draws me so I fly there...I dont really know what my dreams really are about now a days...hehe its cool sometimes... I've met many celebraties in dreams...everytime there in there its funny as hell..well I dont think theyre trying to be tho..I met Sean Claude Van Dam, Ice Cube, Mike Epps, Sylvester Stallone, Tupac Shakur... all of them were doing something xcept the dream of Tupac...we were in the desert, at a shack for a house Tupac was just outside, just staring at nothing , while im in the house annd its messy but the closet is what I noticed the most, the closet was filled with shirts hanging in many of the brightest colors I've seen, it was wierd that i say it looked beautiful heh. Could they have been scouts? They're never mean to me, I had a feeling of friendship from them, & they talk a lot. But its hard for me to remember and since I'm not lucid I cant ask them if they are.
How do you know if your flyer is really gone? People dont affect me like they use to, I mean if someones mad, it doesnt rub on me type of stuff, my momma is ALWAYS mad at me for some reason that it baffles me, is this some kind of flyer manipulation cuz thats probly the only person that effects me when she gets mad but, I keep myself in control. I'm always either Happy, calm, or sad. And they all have degrees.
When I'm thinking I sometimes wonder if thats my flyer talking in there, and I actually ask...are a flyer? and I get complete silence...I found out asking certain questions sometimes help my mind be quiet when I'm calm...like I ask, whats is missing?...I get silence...lol and thats the answer.
"I have said before here that the voice of seeing is different than the voice of the fi." Can you explain that some to me? I'm curious, it sounds like distinguishing the 2 will truly help me seperate myself from the flyer thoughts. And see if I truly conquered my flyer.
And once your flyer is gone. And you have to rebuild your mind part... I get lost there...I cant think of anything my head is just blank silent. I mean what type of things do you rebuild? What would you first start with? I'll probably say something like I'm Spirit in Form...so act it be it type of stuff. But what would you suggest? I'll have to get in a mood like I'm in a classroom and really intented to learn. Cuz since all my worldy learning and views and such are from mostly school, I will change them in same fashion.
"The Edge" is what i'm replying to.. heh thats a fitting name for what I'm thinking and now that I have a sign.. heh I think I would ask. See I have a problem with anger, I read that I need to avoid poisoning myself by supressing anger-and it really is true, I dont get&act mad easily- and needs to express feelings and foster purifying and healing actions.
I had some dreams where I got mad and did stuff that was stupid but most of all just seeing myself acting really angry was something truly wierd and alien to me. Its like showing me that one day anger will be my downfall I might get mad and I'll just EXPLODE and do something I'll regret. I get, feel angry but I never really express it...I change it unconsciously to sadness and pain...is that poisoning myself? But I change it again to something more hopefull more inspirational, something healing I suppose...thats something I just started doing, dont do it much since I dont get mad much, but its alot better.
THNX BYE
"When you keep meeting the same one over and over in dreams then
you are being confronted!"
That was how I first got into all this, from the first dream nightmare I ever really remember that was vivid enuff to scare the **** out of me that it drew me to find out more. Every dream I had when I first started was being chased by this same burnt up guy... and one dream he actually smiled and I'll never forget it. I never faced him tho.. in my dream anyway...I faced him in my meditation,I guess he chose a bad time to show his face in my mind..or maybe I was just remembering but still... I fought him in my mind, it was kinda wierd...he was saying I'm here to HELP YOU, I'll help you if you help me type of stuff...LOL it was funny how he was pleading and begging, since it was him always the one putting fear in my heart thru my dreams...not sure if it was my imagination or what. Ever since then, the nightmares of him went away...it seemed a little to easy defeating him...I cant help but think maybe it was a trick...then I realized his only power was his cunning ability to hide himself..just had to recognize it and face it...yea those nightmares when away only to have nighmares of me constanly dying- and I read somewhere that death in dreams means something of the old is shedding for something new- But I dont die anymore in dreams, that thing you said about flying..hmm that sounds pretty cool, I only flew a couple times but not out of my will, I see something in the sky that draws me so I fly there...I dont really know what my dreams really are about now a days...hehe its cool sometimes... I've met many celebraties in dreams...everytime there in there its funny as hell..well I dont think theyre trying to be tho..I met Sean Claude Van Dam, Ice Cube, Mike Epps, Sylvester Stallone, Tupac Shakur... all of them were doing something xcept the dream of Tupac...we were in the desert, at a shack for a house Tupac was just outside, just staring at nothing , while im in the house annd its messy but the closet is what I noticed the most, the closet was filled with shirts hanging in many of the brightest colors I've seen, it was wierd that i say it looked beautiful heh. Could they have been scouts? They're never mean to me, I had a feeling of friendship from them, & they talk a lot. But its hard for me to remember and since I'm not lucid I cant ask them if they are.
How do you know if your flyer is really gone? People dont affect me like they use to, I mean if someones mad, it doesnt rub on me type of stuff, my momma is ALWAYS mad at me for some reason that it baffles me, is this some kind of flyer manipulation cuz thats probly the only person that effects me when she gets mad but, I keep myself in control. I'm always either Happy, calm, or sad. And they all have degrees.
When I'm thinking I sometimes wonder if thats my flyer talking in there, and I actually ask...are a flyer? and I get complete silence...I found out asking certain questions sometimes help my mind be quiet when I'm calm...like I ask, whats is missing?...I get silence...lol and thats the answer.
"I have said before here that the voice of seeing is different than the voice of the fi." Can you explain that some to me? I'm curious, it sounds like distinguishing the 2 will truly help me seperate myself from the flyer thoughts. And see if I truly conquered my flyer.
And once your flyer is gone. And you have to rebuild your mind part... I get lost there...I cant think of anything my head is just blank silent. I mean what type of things do you rebuild? What would you first start with? I'll probably say something like I'm Spirit in Form...so act it be it type of stuff. But what would you suggest? I'll have to get in a mood like I'm in a classroom and really intented to learn. Cuz since all my worldy learning and views and such are from mostly school, I will change them in same fashion.
"The Edge" is what i'm replying to.. heh thats a fitting name for what I'm thinking and now that I have a sign.. heh I think I would ask. See I have a problem with anger, I read that I need to avoid poisoning myself by supressing anger-and it really is true, I dont get&act mad easily- and needs to express feelings and foster purifying and healing actions.
I had some dreams where I got mad and did stuff that was stupid but most of all just seeing myself acting really angry was something truly wierd and alien to me. Its like showing me that one day anger will be my downfall I might get mad and I'll just EXPLODE and do something I'll regret. I get, feel angry but I never really express it...I change it unconsciously to sadness and pain...is that poisoning myself? But I change it again to something more hopefull more inspirational, something healing I suppose...thats something I just started doing, dont do it much since I dont get mad much, but its alot better.
THNX BYE