09-19-2018, 12:00 AM
Feel ya, mon ami. I work in a busy emergency room and level I trauma center and consider it a supreme challenge to sustain even a modicum of equanimity and optimism there throughout the 12-14 hour shifts. On a personal level, I have had lifelong anxiety/social phobia issues and often wonder why in the h3ll one would choose to throw themselves into this cauldron of daily ambient madness, when one's baseline state is that of an impulsive nervous wreck...but there it is. Sink or swim! 
Lots of meditation in the a.m. before work....energetic movements before, during (in the bathroom, whenever I go 
, and after...and lots of recapitulation, though probably not nearly enough. I just have to constantly, repeatedly reset my intention and clean the slate....over and over and over and over and over again.
I think what you're doing is a nice way of approaching it. Keeping things which you have some control over nice and tidy, bathing the place in subliminal good vibes. The more you do things like this to help uphold your intention, the more creative and competent you will get in dealing with stuff like this, I feel.
Lots of meditation in the a.m. before work....energetic movements before, during (in the bathroom, whenever I go , and after...and lots of recapitulation, though probably not nearly enough. I just have to constantly, repeatedly reset my intention and clean the slate....over and over and over and over and over again.I think what you're doing is a nice way of approaching it. Keeping things which you have some control over nice and tidy, bathing the place in subliminal good vibes. The more you do things like this to help uphold your intention, the more creative and competent you will get in dealing with stuff like this, I feel.