03-28-2016, 12:01 AM
So what is happening when you drop into to the bottom of that. Trust me, I would relish having that much hopelessness and shame to objectify. I mean, I am by my account, completely isolated from 1-33 and all else by virtue of my worthlessness. I would not have the right, given my station of utter diminishment, to relate on a personal level. In fact in my shame, I MUST present myself as the person Billy, for the purpose of magnifying and demonstrating my obligation to shrink in the eyes of those I would offend. I am then in awareness of my degradation as an object. If luck comes my way, I get pissed and **** on or otherwise humiliated to affirm I am somehow real. You wants to go deep there rosygyro? Think of crouching deep in the basin of a public outhouse WAITING, CRAVING for girls to disrespect and laugh at you. And the worst is, they might decide not to be merciful and defecate on you, so you could escape from the agony of existing. Imagine that rapturous reception of the girl's obscenity, bathing in moist, stinky warmth as a negation, and becoming PURITY IN SHAME. THAT is a fucking sensationally, ecstatic experience.
The intent of objectifying shame is all that is needed. Trust shame to take you further down by itself into emptiness, because at the extreme, that is what it will do. I could teach this. It has principles based in core phenomenology, evolution and reason. I worked through it all, rosygyro. I conquered all of the negative mind states using the basis of surrendering to shame. It isn't child's play. I was brutal. I ripped out my heart until it was set on accepting my shame. Then it was all fun once the shame became a shameless shame (an object of detachment). Shame does all the work too. No practice of detachment is involved or needed in the process. Yet, this process forms the foundation for an easily pervasive detachment practice in everyday living, until detachment is the consumate way of living. Mind you, this going down in shame requires no more than what is done in privacy. And OMG, without thought, the abasement is become very, very sexual. You don't always have to masturbate going down, because you can enter the equivalent of great meditative states, but masturbation tends to allow shame to spiral out of control, making for greater shame (which is the desired effect). Masturbation becomes as shameless as the shame, and the orgasms are energetically stupendous. The energies from this have staying power. They accumulate, and there is not a depressive element later. I know every nook and cranny of mastering shame. There is no one else on the fucking planet earth that understands its psycho-physical utilization in beneficience as well as myself. No one!
I've moved on, because it was just another step in a process of furthering awareness, but it was a HUGE one.
The intent of objectifying shame is all that is needed. Trust shame to take you further down by itself into emptiness, because at the extreme, that is what it will do. I could teach this. It has principles based in core phenomenology, evolution and reason. I worked through it all, rosygyro. I conquered all of the negative mind states using the basis of surrendering to shame. It isn't child's play. I was brutal. I ripped out my heart until it was set on accepting my shame. Then it was all fun once the shame became a shameless shame (an object of detachment). Shame does all the work too. No practice of detachment is involved or needed in the process. Yet, this process forms the foundation for an easily pervasive detachment practice in everyday living, until detachment is the consumate way of living. Mind you, this going down in shame requires no more than what is done in privacy. And OMG, without thought, the abasement is become very, very sexual. You don't always have to masturbate going down, because you can enter the equivalent of great meditative states, but masturbation tends to allow shame to spiral out of control, making for greater shame (which is the desired effect). Masturbation becomes as shameless as the shame, and the orgasms are energetically stupendous. The energies from this have staying power. They accumulate, and there is not a depressive element later. I know every nook and cranny of mastering shame. There is no one else on the fucking planet earth that understands its psycho-physical utilization in beneficience as well as myself. No one!
I've moved on, because it was just another step in a process of furthering awareness, but it was a HUGE one.