03-08-2014, 12:00 AM
I am really only a novice because I have only seen twice. The first time I was at a rave party and had been teaching a girl how to spin poi poi, I left her and walked to the center of a large room, I was feeling happy because usually when i met girls I would become a bit obsessed and make a big deal out of it but this time I avoided this whole process. I was thinking about how all of us just want to be liked or accepted then BAM, out of nowhere I was like a cartoon who had discovered that he was being drawn. This event may have not really been seeing because I cannot describe what I saw but it was like a moment of remembering what I/ we really are. I said to myself very loud in my head '' oh, I see '' this was my way of dealing with the sensation I had of being suspended within myself. I then decided very quickly to forget what what I had just remembered LOL then spent a while wishing I had not been such a **** about it LOL. I went and sat on my own on the floor feeling pissed off and a song came on ''don't worry, be happy'' This made me more pissed off and now this is one of my favorite songs!
The second experience was much more like what I have read about seeing. I was working alone in my shop sometimes no customers would come in for hours so it gave me time to pace around like a loon. This was the time where I had been learning about the teacher within. I had met a real shaman from Venezuela who had told me that the real teacher is within. I made my way to the door of the shop and across the road out side the salvation army building came three people, two young men and a a young women. I mostly focused on the young women but I was not seeing a person, she was like a bundle of information which was like reading a picture book. I read the story and decided that I did not like the way she lived. Usually we can think what we like about people with no apparent consequences but to my surprise a very loud female voice said in my head '' well why don't you come and teach us then!?'' I became extremely embarrassed and became very confused, I felt bad for quite a while after. I think if something like this is going to happen every time I see it will take a very long time before I can even stand it. lol This episode was not seeing fully, when I remember it the people or bundles of information were supper imposed on to my normal vision, My theory so far is that it is easier to see from heightened awareness but it is not a whole picture. My other experience was from normal awareness and seemed more real nut more terrifying.
The second experience was much more like what I have read about seeing. I was working alone in my shop sometimes no customers would come in for hours so it gave me time to pace around like a loon. This was the time where I had been learning about the teacher within. I had met a real shaman from Venezuela who had told me that the real teacher is within. I made my way to the door of the shop and across the road out side the salvation army building came three people, two young men and a a young women. I mostly focused on the young women but I was not seeing a person, she was like a bundle of information which was like reading a picture book. I read the story and decided that I did not like the way she lived. Usually we can think what we like about people with no apparent consequences but to my surprise a very loud female voice said in my head '' well why don't you come and teach us then!?'' I became extremely embarrassed and became very confused, I felt bad for quite a while after. I think if something like this is going to happen every time I see it will take a very long time before I can even stand it. lol This episode was not seeing fully, when I remember it the people or bundles of information were supper imposed on to my normal vision, My theory so far is that it is easier to see from heightened awareness but it is not a whole picture. My other experience was from normal awareness and seemed more real nut more terrifying.