06-21-2012, 12:00 AM
I've been trying for years and years And silencing is progressing, to be sure...excruciatingly slowly....soooooooo slowly. Easily distracted....easily bumped off course....easily indulgent or in giving up saying "*** it!" (that doesn't last long though things get bad quickly then). And yet, something is progressing in fits and halts. Silence is deepening. The hardest thing I've ever endeavored in my entire life...the pursuit of sustained silence. Sometimes my mind goes absolutely apeshit in retaliation...so, yeah...its been a hard slow go for me. But let me tell you straight up....its been worth it.....every inch fought for has been worth the effort