08-19-2011, 12:00 AM
A SHARED POST:
and no one cares about the poor car you totaled!
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!! :'(
"Ain't I a stinker"
--Bugs Bunny
Okay, now that you are properly shocked by my blatant callousness I can say that at one point in my life I wanted so desperately to get back to the Universal Love I felt in my first near-death experience that I did my best to kill myself by taking strychnine poison. I was sent to hell and eventually given another chance at life. I now remember that I literally had to, essentially, crawl back from the dead. I could barely function, my wife rejected me in favor of her new boyfriend. Wow! I just remembered that was the last straw, on top of everything else, that drove me to suicide. Interesting that it no longer hurts.
I really don't want to talk about it because it is too painful to try to talk about and it no longer matters so it's not worth reliving, but this is why I was so determined to do my best to keep that person from committing suicide when I first posted in the Sustained Reaction forum. The way most of those scum treated me reminded me why I was determined to take my life. Fucking human scum!!!
And that bastard Shameless Pitchman for Jesus is the only person on my imaginary list who I want to beat to death with a baseball bat for pretending to be a little Christian girl who he kept claiming I sexually molested her. The bastard kept hounding me and hounding me following me all over the board. I COULD JUST KILL HIM right after I tell him I forgive him. BEAT HIM TO DEATH WITH EXTREME PREJUDICE!!!! So, he was certain God revealed to him that I sexually molested a little Christian girl, eh? Well, we'll soon see about that!
Nuff said on that subject.
I do my best to touch as lightly as possible upon my problems and focus my entire intent upon possible solutions. The past is a memory; which is almost a dream. A great hypnotist can put you in a hypnotic trance and program your subconscious with even more horrible memories than yours...which never happened. You could very well spend the rest of your life in agonizing therapy reliving a memory...that never happened!
Consider this before you torture yourself over a memory that may not be worthy of remembering.
I say: remember what helps to make you a better person and...throw the rest away.
There are techniques I have learned from study about hypnosis, and modified, that can help:
Take some time when you are alone. Shut off the telephone and make certain you will not be disturbed. Sit or lie down. Take a few calm deep breaths. Now replay your painful memory as though your mind is a DVD player. With your mind push the fast forward button so that the memory plays through at fast speed. You will notice that it is much more difficult to feel as miserable as the memory plays in fast forward speed. Each time you replay the memory envision yourself sucking back the energy attached to the memory that makes it hurt (It is indeed a certain quality of energy attached to the memory that makes it hurt). Suck that energy back where it belongs within your energetic being. I do the physical act of sucking air through my mouth while I review the memory at fast forward speed. You can be creative and adjust the process any way that inspires you.
When you can play the memory at fast forward speed and it no longer hurts to review it slow down the memory and continue to 'suck' back the attached energy that makes the memory hurt until you can review the memory and feel no pain. Once that happens review the memory and take the color out so that you are reviewing it in black & white instead of in color.
Then flatten the memory and pretend you are watching it in a movie theater in black & white. After watching the memory over and over so many times, by this point, you should be getting bored as you would be watching the same scene over and over and over in a theater. So, now instead of pain you feel boredom as you review the memory. At this point imagine taking the screen, folding it up into a small square and putting it in a memory file called: Not Very Interesting
If the memory ever resurfaces and causes you pain modify and repeat the process
Hey, it works for me
I don't bother talking about my problems unless by reviewing those problems I am somehow motivated to take action to better my life. All the people in my life who have inspired me to take revenge are being used to energetically JOLT me into actions that strengthen me. If thinking about the situation stagnates me and tempts me to give up on life I use the above process until that quality of energy is 'sucked' out of the memory and returned to where it belongs in my consciousness.
Well, that's the best I have to offer. I do my best not to torture myself over things that cannot be changed. Wallowing in depression does not help me to become a better person so, unless it is for some good purpose, I do my best to snap myself out through taking a shower, working out and maintaining a clean, uncluttered inspiring living environment. Hey, it works for me and that's more than good enough.
and no one cares about the poor car you totaled!
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!! :'(
"Ain't I a stinker"
--Bugs Bunny
Okay, now that you are properly shocked by my blatant callousness I can say that at one point in my life I wanted so desperately to get back to the Universal Love I felt in my first near-death experience that I did my best to kill myself by taking strychnine poison. I was sent to hell and eventually given another chance at life. I now remember that I literally had to, essentially, crawl back from the dead. I could barely function, my wife rejected me in favor of her new boyfriend. Wow! I just remembered that was the last straw, on top of everything else, that drove me to suicide. Interesting that it no longer hurts.
I really don't want to talk about it because it is too painful to try to talk about and it no longer matters so it's not worth reliving, but this is why I was so determined to do my best to keep that person from committing suicide when I first posted in the Sustained Reaction forum. The way most of those scum treated me reminded me why I was determined to take my life. Fucking human scum!!!
And that bastard Shameless Pitchman for Jesus is the only person on my imaginary list who I want to beat to death with a baseball bat for pretending to be a little Christian girl who he kept claiming I sexually molested her. The bastard kept hounding me and hounding me following me all over the board. I COULD JUST KILL HIM right after I tell him I forgive him. BEAT HIM TO DEATH WITH EXTREME PREJUDICE!!!! So, he was certain God revealed to him that I sexually molested a little Christian girl, eh? Well, we'll soon see about that!
Nuff said on that subject.
I do my best to touch as lightly as possible upon my problems and focus my entire intent upon possible solutions. The past is a memory; which is almost a dream. A great hypnotist can put you in a hypnotic trance and program your subconscious with even more horrible memories than yours...which never happened. You could very well spend the rest of your life in agonizing therapy reliving a memory...that never happened!
Consider this before you torture yourself over a memory that may not be worthy of remembering.
I say: remember what helps to make you a better person and...throw the rest away.
There are techniques I have learned from study about hypnosis, and modified, that can help:
Take some time when you are alone. Shut off the telephone and make certain you will not be disturbed. Sit or lie down. Take a few calm deep breaths. Now replay your painful memory as though your mind is a DVD player. With your mind push the fast forward button so that the memory plays through at fast speed. You will notice that it is much more difficult to feel as miserable as the memory plays in fast forward speed. Each time you replay the memory envision yourself sucking back the energy attached to the memory that makes it hurt (It is indeed a certain quality of energy attached to the memory that makes it hurt). Suck that energy back where it belongs within your energetic being. I do the physical act of sucking air through my mouth while I review the memory at fast forward speed. You can be creative and adjust the process any way that inspires you.
When you can play the memory at fast forward speed and it no longer hurts to review it slow down the memory and continue to 'suck' back the attached energy that makes the memory hurt until you can review the memory and feel no pain. Once that happens review the memory and take the color out so that you are reviewing it in black & white instead of in color.
Then flatten the memory and pretend you are watching it in a movie theater in black & white. After watching the memory over and over so many times, by this point, you should be getting bored as you would be watching the same scene over and over and over in a theater. So, now instead of pain you feel boredom as you review the memory. At this point imagine taking the screen, folding it up into a small square and putting it in a memory file called: Not Very Interesting
If the memory ever resurfaces and causes you pain modify and repeat the process
Hey, it works for me
I don't bother talking about my problems unless by reviewing those problems I am somehow motivated to take action to better my life. All the people in my life who have inspired me to take revenge are being used to energetically JOLT me into actions that strengthen me. If thinking about the situation stagnates me and tempts me to give up on life I use the above process until that quality of energy is 'sucked' out of the memory and returned to where it belongs in my consciousness.
Well, that's the best I have to offer. I do my best not to torture myself over things that cannot be changed. Wallowing in depression does not help me to become a better person so, unless it is for some good purpose, I do my best to snap myself out through taking a shower, working out and maintaining a clean, uncluttered inspiring living environment. Hey, it works for me and that's more than good enough.