01-08-2011, 12:00 AM
Nice post Alien. Yes, that was a random incident in my life, but like you, I had in addition to random incidents, relatives...primarily three main ones who were hostile on a regular basis, so it all combines into one long theme of "people are hostile, people are not trustworthy, people let you down becasue they are consumed with their own entanglements and cannot see you for who you are." Much of my childhood was like this, very lonely and I was very miusunderstood because I learned how to play nice and be obidient so as to keep attention off me, so everyone thought I was a strong kid but in truth I was always terrified by all this intent I saw and I didn't know who I could tell it too that would understand.
That was then, this is now. I posed that question because I was interested to hear your thoughts about such personal expereince (form of knowledge) that the emotional residue is then used by the FI in a very real way...such as...the emotions of hostility are so real and stored in our body and the FI merely presses upon it to get us to feel our current situations are just as "real" and similar. So it usues our emotional memory and the feeling of reality that surrounds it, when in fact, just as you said, those past situations "no longer are" so its a lie and a trick the FI knows how to manuever.
"So it's not the experience that's so important, as much as how we process and assimilate it,"
Yes indeed, good point. Regarding what I spoke of here, it just dawned on me how I have been approaching this issue recently, mainly the past month. Whenever a very strong negative emotion from my past is activated, and I hear my internal dialog begin to "assemble a reality" around it that pertains to the "now" I immediately shut off the dialog. Its not that I try to also stop the emotions, but I do find that if my dialog is not active, the emotions do not last very long because they need the dialog to sustain them. And I'm working at a cumulative effect...that is, to keep doing this each and every time this occurs and I know that the emotions arisen pertain to my past traumas and not current situations to be dealt with. The fact of the matter is, if I allow the dialog in, it will make the past the now, and I don't want, won't allow that to occur.
"The kind of knowledge that leads to power is the knowledge of self: who are you? Knowing the answer to that question is opening the door to power that cannot be taken from you even by the FI."
Good question, thanks for it. I am a warrior, a stalker who dreams, and a nagual woman. Not calling myself a leader, I don't care to lead anyone nor to suggest anyone here isn't a nagual themselves. I access the nagual so I am a nagual, Spirit always spoke to me. All the times in my childhood I was alone, I was often outside speaking to trees and ladybugs and the sky...
That was then, this is now. I posed that question because I was interested to hear your thoughts about such personal expereince (form of knowledge) that the emotional residue is then used by the FI in a very real way...such as...the emotions of hostility are so real and stored in our body and the FI merely presses upon it to get us to feel our current situations are just as "real" and similar. So it usues our emotional memory and the feeling of reality that surrounds it, when in fact, just as you said, those past situations "no longer are" so its a lie and a trick the FI knows how to manuever.
"So it's not the experience that's so important, as much as how we process and assimilate it,"
Yes indeed, good point. Regarding what I spoke of here, it just dawned on me how I have been approaching this issue recently, mainly the past month. Whenever a very strong negative emotion from my past is activated, and I hear my internal dialog begin to "assemble a reality" around it that pertains to the "now" I immediately shut off the dialog. Its not that I try to also stop the emotions, but I do find that if my dialog is not active, the emotions do not last very long because they need the dialog to sustain them. And I'm working at a cumulative effect...that is, to keep doing this each and every time this occurs and I know that the emotions arisen pertain to my past traumas and not current situations to be dealt with. The fact of the matter is, if I allow the dialog in, it will make the past the now, and I don't want, won't allow that to occur.
"The kind of knowledge that leads to power is the knowledge of self: who are you? Knowing the answer to that question is opening the door to power that cannot be taken from you even by the FI."
Good question, thanks for it. I am a warrior, a stalker who dreams, and a nagual woman. Not calling myself a leader, I don't care to lead anyone nor to suggest anyone here isn't a nagual themselves. I access the nagual so I am a nagual, Spirit always spoke to me. All the times in my childhood I was alone, I was often outside speaking to trees and ladybugs and the sky...