05-02-2010, 12:00 AM
If we all die and all our emotions and everything die with us then as eternal spiritual beings we really only have such a very tiny tiny tiny ammount of time to experience emotions. Unlike buddhists I do not see the mind as an issue and think we need to take this brief opportunity to experience what its like to be human rather than attempting to live like spirits while being human.
I have absolutely no need for traditions that try to pretend we are not sexual beings and that men and women need to be seperated. I used to. I used to try to emulate them and live by those ideals. I decided it was a failure and never will again. I despise religion and see no seperation between man and his emotions and man and his johnston.
To me being nonsexual is being dead. My goal is to live it while Im alive and not to cling to life and to let go of everything when I die.
In fact when I shroom spirit often kills me repeatedly. I actual feel it. Like on my last shroom trip a year plus back I experienced the end times and I had to die every single way everyone around me was going to die. It was hideously brutal. I had my neck snapped, got eaten by a giant dog, consumed by insects, all kind sof stuff. Also I was totally lucid and felt every single pain of the process each time as if it was really happening(indeed it seemed real I knew no difference) and each time I died I would totally let go and feel so satisfied and good then id be stunned id came back to life. Quite a kicker, eh? This is how I know I cant be killed. A law cannot be broken.
I have absolutely no need for traditions that try to pretend we are not sexual beings and that men and women need to be seperated. I used to. I used to try to emulate them and live by those ideals. I decided it was a failure and never will again. I despise religion and see no seperation between man and his emotions and man and his johnston.
To me being nonsexual is being dead. My goal is to live it while Im alive and not to cling to life and to let go of everything when I die.
In fact when I shroom spirit often kills me repeatedly. I actual feel it. Like on my last shroom trip a year plus back I experienced the end times and I had to die every single way everyone around me was going to die. It was hideously brutal. I had my neck snapped, got eaten by a giant dog, consumed by insects, all kind sof stuff. Also I was totally lucid and felt every single pain of the process each time as if it was really happening(indeed it seemed real I knew no difference) and each time I died I would totally let go and feel so satisfied and good then id be stunned id came back to life. Quite a kicker, eh? This is how I know I cant be killed. A law cannot be broken.