07-24-2011, 12:02 AM
Gosh what a lot of words about this.
I actually embodied the sorcerers explantion bodily nearly 20 years ago. It took a long long time to get myself straight.
I know its easy to write these words. Anyone can say such things. But here i am none the less, prepared to look like yet another ****.
The thing that made me abandon the books all those years ago was that Carlos jumped off a cliff to test his knowledge, to test and get this 'explanation'. I couldnt get my head around that. I thought i understood all the concepts but actually jumping off a cliff and not hitting the bottom had me flumoxed. I mean if you drop pure speculation and look at what this really is, its just impossible. It was an impasse i came up against.
I mean really, who here is ready to test their knowledge in this way? A cliff is real and there is no way to fake this. We either take the damn books at face value or we discard it all as clever psychological verbage. Stuck, I threw the books away.
Several months later i found myself making a similar leap to that written about. I really didnt expect to survive. I did, but it cost me my mind and quite a lot more besides. I actually embodied the sorcerers explanation. Its such an easy thing to say.
I know its described as devastating when you really get this explanation. Boy oh boy oh boy is that an understatement. To be honest i havnt read anything on the forum here to suggest anyone else has been through something similar. That doesnt mean they havn't, only that i havn't come across it.
To be honest i am only saying this in the hope that it leads to genuine conversation with people who are real for me. That has been a long time since. I am naturally a very shy person and writing these harmless little words is actually a big deal for me, so my caveat is 'be nice' or i am off.
I actually embodied the sorcerers explantion bodily nearly 20 years ago. It took a long long time to get myself straight.
I know its easy to write these words. Anyone can say such things. But here i am none the less, prepared to look like yet another ****.
The thing that made me abandon the books all those years ago was that Carlos jumped off a cliff to test his knowledge, to test and get this 'explanation'. I couldnt get my head around that. I thought i understood all the concepts but actually jumping off a cliff and not hitting the bottom had me flumoxed. I mean if you drop pure speculation and look at what this really is, its just impossible. It was an impasse i came up against.
I mean really, who here is ready to test their knowledge in this way? A cliff is real and there is no way to fake this. We either take the damn books at face value or we discard it all as clever psychological verbage. Stuck, I threw the books away.
Several months later i found myself making a similar leap to that written about. I really didnt expect to survive. I did, but it cost me my mind and quite a lot more besides. I actually embodied the sorcerers explanation. Its such an easy thing to say.
I know its described as devastating when you really get this explanation. Boy oh boy oh boy is that an understatement. To be honest i havnt read anything on the forum here to suggest anyone else has been through something similar. That doesnt mean they havn't, only that i havn't come across it.
To be honest i am only saying this in the hope that it leads to genuine conversation with people who are real for me. That has been a long time since. I am naturally a very shy person and writing these harmless little words is actually a big deal for me, so my caveat is 'be nice' or i am off.