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on 08-31-2010 at 08:05 PM (New Dream Adventures of Raven Knight)
Note: The final presentation is done and over, so the only thing to do
for now was to try to get my dream control and recall back So with
every intention of recalling dreams tonight, no special plans except to
relax a bit after working so hard, and an attempt to WILD, I fell
asleep with my light / sound machine on. Unfortunately I was unable to
get into my WILD…
I was on a beach, it was nearly sunset, and the only sounds I could
hear were the sounds of the waves hitting the shore, the cries of
seagulls in the distance, and the sound of a gentle wind blowing in off
of the ocean. The scene was very relaxing, which felt good. Even though
I didn't realize I was dreaming, I still felt a need for relaxation and
rest, so I sat down on the warm sand and stared out over the waves and
into the colorful sky with the reds and oranges of the sunset, it was
beautiful. I'm not sure how long I sat there and relaxed before I
sensed that I was not alone there, there was someone else on the beach
with me. I knew I wouldn't necessarily have the beach to myself for
long, but I did want to see who I was sharing it with, if it was
someone hot… someone creepy… someone with a dog… a psychotic looking
clown… yes, that thought did enter my mind… What I did see when I
turned around was an older man, he didn't look threatening or
psychotic, he was by himself, he looked like an American Indian, and he
was gazing off into the sunset just as I was. So I turned my attention
from the man and back to the waves, birds, and the sunset.
I now sensed that the Indian man was right behind me, I could feel his
gaze as he was looking right at me, and this caused me to turn around
again. He was, indeed, staring at me now, and he had a disapproving
look on his face. My first thought was that I was trespassing on a
private beach, that would definitely explain why there weren't any
other people there. He probably wanted me to leave. I felt a mixture of
foolishness for wandering onto private property and annoyance at having
to leave since I clearly wasn't hurting anything, but I got up, brushed
sand off my pants, apologized to the man for trespassing on his beach,
and started to walk away. He stopped me with a hand on my shoulder, he
said he did not own the beach, no one owned the beach. Whew, that was
good, so there was really nothing wrong with me being there. The man
pointed out to the sea, asking if I saw something wrong. I said no,
since I had been staring and not seeing anything wrong. He told me to
look again, more closely. I did. The sun was hanging over the ocean,
the sky was bright reds and oranges, fading to deep purple and blue
overhead, and the waves flowed steadily out to sea… huh? The waves were
weird… wrong somehow… I looked closer, and the water seemed to be
emerging from the sand itself and flowing out to sea… that wasn't
normal, so I did a RC and found I was dreaming…
I
looked back at the man now, he said it was about time I became lucid, I
found the way he said it to be a bit annoying, but he had made me lucid
so I brushed it off. I asked him who he was, he said I should already
know that now that I was lucid, unless of course I was completely
blind, he said I should look at him and actually see who he was. I was
getting a bit more impatient with his attitude, but I still didn't
respond to that, resisting an impulse to call him an ass… there
couldn't be any benefit to that. I looked at the man, focusing on
seeing his energy this time, and I finally decided I was looking at don
Juan, but there was something about his energy that was a bit off…
right as I thought his energy was off, the frequency conformed to what
I thought it should be, he said now I could see him. He pointed back
out at the ocean and asked what I saw there… I saw dolphins swimming
out in the ocean, so I watched them for a bit and told don Juan about
the dolphins I saw even thought I thought he should be able to see them
for himself.
I was watching the dolphins still when don Juan slipped a cold glass
into my hand, I looked at it and it was full of a drink of some kind,
he said to drink it… I sniffed the stuff, wondering what it could be,
maybe I'd get my penticon implant to do a spectral analysis on the
stuff before drinking it, that way I could be sure it wasn't dangerous…
then that felt a bit dumb, I was in a dream, I could eat a cyanide and
arsenic sandwich with cobra venom on it and a glass of bleach to wash
it down, and it wouldn't be dangerous. It would be disgusting, but not
dangerous… besides, I didn't remember any time where don Juan had
seemed hostile, so I took a sip of the drink. It was actually pretty
good, sweet and fruity, so I drank a bit more and looked back out over
the ocean to see if the dolphins were still there.
The red sun was just about gone beneath the surface of the waves, and
the full moon was rising a bit to the right of the sun… wtf? How could
the moon be rising from the same direction the sun was setting? I
rubbed my eyes, looked again, and the sun was rising now, and the moon
was setting. Um… ok… well, it was a dream after all… so anything is
possible in a dream, the laws of physics are not applicable here. I was
absent mindedly drinking the juice when I noticed I felt strange, a bit
light headed… wait a minute… the world was spinning, I was losing the
dream! Damn! I focused on the moon and willed the dream to stabilize, I
wasn't ready to wake up… The sun turned into a giant pacman with fangs
and tore a large mouthful out of the moon, red color that looked like
blood came out of the torn moon and added even brighter reds to the
sky, and it caused the ocean itself to look like it was on fire. The
sun ate the rest of the moon in one bite, then hundreds of stars fell
from the sky and ate the sun until there was nothing left but a dark
night sky filled with stars, although some of those stars were notably
fatter than the others. I was just staring at that in silence until I
finally muttered a, "What the *** was that all about?"
I took another drink and stared at the night sky for a bit longer,
waiting for anything else odd to happen, and I felt something bite my
lip. I looked in the glass and saw there was not much of the drink
left, and there were weird worm things with lots of teeth squirming on
the bottom of the glass, looking up at me and snarling, jumping to get
to me to bite, one of them was hanging off of my face. I removed the
worm, put it back in the glass, and felt like vomiting at the idea I
might have actually swallowed one of those things… as I said, things
like that won't hurt me in a dream, but it can still be extremely
disgusting. I felt light headed and nauseated, what the ***? I had
been poisoned after all, though this guy hadn't seemed hostile in any
way, I had been poisoned, I looked over where I knew don Juan was and I
saw a clown… a weird clown with so many razor sharp fangs, blood
dripping from his fangs… what the ***? I thought I was on a beach with
don Juan, not Pennywise the Clown from Stephen King's It! The clown was
grinning at me in a very evil manner, which was weird since the energy
I sensed from the clown was still not hostile, maybe a bit amused, but
not hostile. My penticon implant spoke to me, saying the foreign
substance had been identified and was being neutralized… I closed my
eyes and waited until the computer said the neutralization was
complete… then I opened my eyes and looked around.
It was dark out now, there were stars in the sky, no sign of the moon,
there was a faint red glow on the horizon, dolphins were playing in the
ocean as the waves rolled in from the ocean instead of out to the
ocean… and don Juan was standing beside me, not Pennywise the Clown,
although he did look amused. I realized I was still holding the glass
that had the juice in it, but when I looked it was just a bit of juice
left, no worms or anything inside it. Hmmm… it seemed I was the butt of
some kind of joke here… I took a deep breath and looked over at don
Juan, I asked him what the point of that had been, because if it was a
poison, he should know I can't be poisoned in the dream state… He
looked into my eyes and got a strange look on his face. I had no doubt
in my mind that the drink had been poisoned… my penticon said the drink
would be safe now, since the substance to neutralize the poison was
already in my system. Don Juan was still staring… I commented it's rude
to stare… I then commented that the fruit drink was good, asked if he
had any more of it… he said sure, and filled my glass from a flask, so
I drank down the poison then deliberately smirked… then accidently
burped… a long, loud, and embarrassing one that smelled like fruit… I
said, "Excuse me," out of habit.
Don Juan asked if I could sense all the different way things are… he
said I should be doing it effortlessly now, but… he seemed a bit
puzzled… He said I have already done it in dreams, I have seen many
worlds at once in the dream state… he indicated the ocean, I saw don
Juan standing in front of the ocean (a gunslinger at the edge of a
desert) (an old hic at the edge of a swamp) (a fire elemental beside an
ocean of lava) (and Indian shaman at a fire at the edge of a thick
forest) (a desolate ocean bed with a vampire in front of it) (a massive
storm that was blowing with intense force, no sign of don Juan or
anyone else) (a battlefield with many dead and dying soldiers lying
everywhere, one not far from me was screaming as a vulture was eating
him while he still lived as a soldier beside me pointed and laughed) (a
field of colorful flowers and a country man standing beside me) (a vast
level area of land with an army of Goa'uld marching across it, Teal'c
was beside me) There were so many different versions I wasn't able to
focus enough to take action in any of them, it was quite disorienting…
Then I heard don Juan speaking to me, focused on that, and pulled
myself back into one world, seeing one place, one time… The beach was
completely dark now, illuminated only by the dim glow of the stars, my
eyes adjusted to the darkness and I could see don Juan was still there,
and he was speaking. He said I have the ability to see into many worlds
at once when in the dream state, and with practice, to take a different
action in each one of those worlds, so why hadn't I yet tried to exist
in even two worlds simultaneously while awake? I said it was because I
would never believe it or trust it to be real. He asked why not, I said
I would have no way of being certain I was having an effect on another
world or just pulling fictional **** out of my ass. He said I have to
learn not to question what my own senses tell me, be they physical
senses or other senses, it is completely normal for a nagual to see
many planes and interact with them simultaneously… ok, there's your
problem… I am not a nagual, if you want to talk to a nagual, maybe I
could bring MoSh to this dream… He said he will find MoSh on his own
when it is time, but now he was telling me to use the powers I have
IWL… I said I have no powers IWL. He said I do have powers there, he
said my friend thinks he is full of ****, so was I saying I agree with
that, was I also saying he was full of ****? I wondered how he was so
sure I have a friend who thinks he is full of ****… he said he wasn't
blind, and that is fine if she wants to think that, she will find her
own path. So, did my opinion match hers? That he was full of ****? I
wasn't sure what to say, I didn't want to be rude and say yes, he's
full of ****, but I know I have no powers IWL… so I said nothing.
After waiting for a short time, don Juan said again to use my powers
IWL, I repeated I have no power IWL, to me we were both starting to
sound like broken records, repeating over and over and over… I was
getting impatient. I said of course I have no powers IWL, that's why
they locked me into the trash hole of a dimension where I am now
imprisoned. I'm not sure why I said someone sealed me in my home
dimension… he said the prison couldn't be secure if I was there, on
that beach, with him right now… I said apparently there is a breach
that allows for dream travels… but on the physical plane, any powers I
had have been sealed. He asked who had sealed my powers. I said I
didn't know, maybe the Templars? He laughed, said not even close. He
said the only one who had sealed my powers in my waking world was me,
sealed it with doubt and disbelief, self doubt and refusal to believe
in myself, because without those two things nothing will ever be
possible. Or, of course, if I prefer to think he is full of ****, then
go ask someone else and they will say the same things using different
words. I really wasn't sure what to say right now, but I didn't have a
chance to say anything before the dream faded and I woke.
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on 08-31-2010 at 08:05 PM (New Dream Adventures of Raven Knight)
Note: The final presentation is done and over, so the only thing to do
for now was to try to get my dream control and recall back So with
every intention of recalling dreams tonight, no special plans except to
relax a bit after working so hard, and an attempt to WILD, I fell
asleep with my light / sound machine on. Unfortunately I was unable to
get into my WILD…
I was on a beach, it was nearly sunset, and the only sounds I could
hear were the sounds of the waves hitting the shore, the cries of
seagulls in the distance, and the sound of a gentle wind blowing in off
of the ocean. The scene was very relaxing, which felt good. Even though
I didn't realize I was dreaming, I still felt a need for relaxation and
rest, so I sat down on the warm sand and stared out over the waves and
into the colorful sky with the reds and oranges of the sunset, it was
beautiful. I'm not sure how long I sat there and relaxed before I
sensed that I was not alone there, there was someone else on the beach
with me. I knew I wouldn't necessarily have the beach to myself for
long, but I did want to see who I was sharing it with, if it was
someone hot… someone creepy… someone with a dog… a psychotic looking
clown… yes, that thought did enter my mind… What I did see when I
turned around was an older man, he didn't look threatening or
psychotic, he was by himself, he looked like an American Indian, and he
was gazing off into the sunset just as I was. So I turned my attention
from the man and back to the waves, birds, and the sunset.
I now sensed that the Indian man was right behind me, I could feel his
gaze as he was looking right at me, and this caused me to turn around
again. He was, indeed, staring at me now, and he had a disapproving
look on his face. My first thought was that I was trespassing on a
private beach, that would definitely explain why there weren't any
other people there. He probably wanted me to leave. I felt a mixture of
foolishness for wandering onto private property and annoyance at having
to leave since I clearly wasn't hurting anything, but I got up, brushed
sand off my pants, apologized to the man for trespassing on his beach,
and started to walk away. He stopped me with a hand on my shoulder, he
said he did not own the beach, no one owned the beach. Whew, that was
good, so there was really nothing wrong with me being there. The man
pointed out to the sea, asking if I saw something wrong. I said no,
since I had been staring and not seeing anything wrong. He told me to
look again, more closely. I did. The sun was hanging over the ocean,
the sky was bright reds and oranges, fading to deep purple and blue
overhead, and the waves flowed steadily out to sea… huh? The waves were
weird… wrong somehow… I looked closer, and the water seemed to be
emerging from the sand itself and flowing out to sea… that wasn't
normal, so I did a RC and found I was dreaming…
I
looked back at the man now, he said it was about time I became lucid, I
found the way he said it to be a bit annoying, but he had made me lucid
so I brushed it off. I asked him who he was, he said I should already
know that now that I was lucid, unless of course I was completely
blind, he said I should look at him and actually see who he was. I was
getting a bit more impatient with his attitude, but I still didn't
respond to that, resisting an impulse to call him an ass… there
couldn't be any benefit to that. I looked at the man, focusing on
seeing his energy this time, and I finally decided I was looking at don
Juan, but there was something about his energy that was a bit off…
right as I thought his energy was off, the frequency conformed to what
I thought it should be, he said now I could see him. He pointed back
out at the ocean and asked what I saw there… I saw dolphins swimming
out in the ocean, so I watched them for a bit and told don Juan about
the dolphins I saw even thought I thought he should be able to see them
for himself.
I was watching the dolphins still when don Juan slipped a cold glass
into my hand, I looked at it and it was full of a drink of some kind,
he said to drink it… I sniffed the stuff, wondering what it could be,
maybe I'd get my penticon implant to do a spectral analysis on the
stuff before drinking it, that way I could be sure it wasn't dangerous…
then that felt a bit dumb, I was in a dream, I could eat a cyanide and
arsenic sandwich with cobra venom on it and a glass of bleach to wash
it down, and it wouldn't be dangerous. It would be disgusting, but not
dangerous… besides, I didn't remember any time where don Juan had
seemed hostile, so I took a sip of the drink. It was actually pretty
good, sweet and fruity, so I drank a bit more and looked back out over
the ocean to see if the dolphins were still there.
The red sun was just about gone beneath the surface of the waves, and
the full moon was rising a bit to the right of the sun… wtf? How could
the moon be rising from the same direction the sun was setting? I
rubbed my eyes, looked again, and the sun was rising now, and the moon
was setting. Um… ok… well, it was a dream after all… so anything is
possible in a dream, the laws of physics are not applicable here. I was
absent mindedly drinking the juice when I noticed I felt strange, a bit
light headed… wait a minute… the world was spinning, I was losing the
dream! Damn! I focused on the moon and willed the dream to stabilize, I
wasn't ready to wake up… The sun turned into a giant pacman with fangs
and tore a large mouthful out of the moon, red color that looked like
blood came out of the torn moon and added even brighter reds to the
sky, and it caused the ocean itself to look like it was on fire. The
sun ate the rest of the moon in one bite, then hundreds of stars fell
from the sky and ate the sun until there was nothing left but a dark
night sky filled with stars, although some of those stars were notably
fatter than the others. I was just staring at that in silence until I
finally muttered a, "What the *** was that all about?"
I took another drink and stared at the night sky for a bit longer,
waiting for anything else odd to happen, and I felt something bite my
lip. I looked in the glass and saw there was not much of the drink
left, and there were weird worm things with lots of teeth squirming on
the bottom of the glass, looking up at me and snarling, jumping to get
to me to bite, one of them was hanging off of my face. I removed the
worm, put it back in the glass, and felt like vomiting at the idea I
might have actually swallowed one of those things… as I said, things
like that won't hurt me in a dream, but it can still be extremely
disgusting. I felt light headed and nauseated, what the ***? I had
been poisoned after all, though this guy hadn't seemed hostile in any
way, I had been poisoned, I looked over where I knew don Juan was and I
saw a clown… a weird clown with so many razor sharp fangs, blood
dripping from his fangs… what the ***? I thought I was on a beach with
don Juan, not Pennywise the Clown from Stephen King's It! The clown was
grinning at me in a very evil manner, which was weird since the energy
I sensed from the clown was still not hostile, maybe a bit amused, but
not hostile. My penticon implant spoke to me, saying the foreign
substance had been identified and was being neutralized… I closed my
eyes and waited until the computer said the neutralization was
complete… then I opened my eyes and looked around.
It was dark out now, there were stars in the sky, no sign of the moon,
there was a faint red glow on the horizon, dolphins were playing in the
ocean as the waves rolled in from the ocean instead of out to the
ocean… and don Juan was standing beside me, not Pennywise the Clown,
although he did look amused. I realized I was still holding the glass
that had the juice in it, but when I looked it was just a bit of juice
left, no worms or anything inside it. Hmmm… it seemed I was the butt of
some kind of joke here… I took a deep breath and looked over at don
Juan, I asked him what the point of that had been, because if it was a
poison, he should know I can't be poisoned in the dream state… He
looked into my eyes and got a strange look on his face. I had no doubt
in my mind that the drink had been poisoned… my penticon said the drink
would be safe now, since the substance to neutralize the poison was
already in my system. Don Juan was still staring… I commented it's rude
to stare… I then commented that the fruit drink was good, asked if he
had any more of it… he said sure, and filled my glass from a flask, so
I drank down the poison then deliberately smirked… then accidently
burped… a long, loud, and embarrassing one that smelled like fruit… I
said, "Excuse me," out of habit.
Don Juan asked if I could sense all the different way things are… he
said I should be doing it effortlessly now, but… he seemed a bit
puzzled… He said I have already done it in dreams, I have seen many
worlds at once in the dream state… he indicated the ocean, I saw don
Juan standing in front of the ocean (a gunslinger at the edge of a
desert) (an old hic at the edge of a swamp) (a fire elemental beside an
ocean of lava) (and Indian shaman at a fire at the edge of a thick
forest) (a desolate ocean bed with a vampire in front of it) (a massive
storm that was blowing with intense force, no sign of don Juan or
anyone else) (a battlefield with many dead and dying soldiers lying
everywhere, one not far from me was screaming as a vulture was eating
him while he still lived as a soldier beside me pointed and laughed) (a
field of colorful flowers and a country man standing beside me) (a vast
level area of land with an army of Goa'uld marching across it, Teal'c
was beside me) There were so many different versions I wasn't able to
focus enough to take action in any of them, it was quite disorienting…
Then I heard don Juan speaking to me, focused on that, and pulled
myself back into one world, seeing one place, one time… The beach was
completely dark now, illuminated only by the dim glow of the stars, my
eyes adjusted to the darkness and I could see don Juan was still there,
and he was speaking. He said I have the ability to see into many worlds
at once when in the dream state, and with practice, to take a different
action in each one of those worlds, so why hadn't I yet tried to exist
in even two worlds simultaneously while awake? I said it was because I
would never believe it or trust it to be real. He asked why not, I said
I would have no way of being certain I was having an effect on another
world or just pulling fictional **** out of my ass. He said I have to
learn not to question what my own senses tell me, be they physical
senses or other senses, it is completely normal for a nagual to see
many planes and interact with them simultaneously… ok, there's your
problem… I am not a nagual, if you want to talk to a nagual, maybe I
could bring MoSh to this dream… He said he will find MoSh on his own
when it is time, but now he was telling me to use the powers I have
IWL… I said I have no powers IWL. He said I do have powers there, he
said my friend thinks he is full of ****, so was I saying I agree with
that, was I also saying he was full of ****? I wondered how he was so
sure I have a friend who thinks he is full of ****… he said he wasn't
blind, and that is fine if she wants to think that, she will find her
own path. So, did my opinion match hers? That he was full of ****? I
wasn't sure what to say, I didn't want to be rude and say yes, he's
full of ****, but I know I have no powers IWL… so I said nothing.
After waiting for a short time, don Juan said again to use my powers
IWL, I repeated I have no power IWL, to me we were both starting to
sound like broken records, repeating over and over and over… I was
getting impatient. I said of course I have no powers IWL, that's why
they locked me into the trash hole of a dimension where I am now
imprisoned. I'm not sure why I said someone sealed me in my home
dimension… he said the prison couldn't be secure if I was there, on
that beach, with him right now… I said apparently there is a breach
that allows for dream travels… but on the physical plane, any powers I
had have been sealed. He asked who had sealed my powers. I said I
didn't know, maybe the Templars? He laughed, said not even close. He
said the only one who had sealed my powers in my waking world was me,
sealed it with doubt and disbelief, self doubt and refusal to believe
in myself, because without those two things nothing will ever be
possible. Or, of course, if I prefer to think he is full of ****, then
go ask someone else and they will say the same things using different
words. I really wasn't sure what to say right now, but I didn't have a
chance to say anything before the dream faded and I woke.