05-18-2009, 12:00 AM
Hey Bob May!!!!
I have read similar accounts of this experience happing to a handful of people, this is a particular interest to me, the ones I remember are Dr. Ann Faraday and Meta Zetta, and Lee Lozowick, the two latter I know little about. These few people have had a spontaneous awakening during sleep, to awake without an ego. Sounds fortunate to me, and I suspect this is what is happening to you. You already strike me as someone who is awakened, and thus you are at the doorway of being completely ego free. Here is what Ann Faraday has to say about what happened to her, I get this from Anglefire, but I could not copy and paste, so I am just re-typing it. Here goes:
"And far from being a matter of regret, this loss of self came as a distinct relief. In fact when bits and pieces of my old identity - hopes, fears, goals, memories, spritual aspirations and all the rest - began to recollect as I awoke, I tried to fight them off, in much the same way, perhaps, as the reluctant surviviors of near-death experiences resist the return to life's little boxes. But unlike those survivors, I brought back no blissful sense of divine presence or of a mission to accomplish, nor even immitations of immortality - just a total inner and outer Empty-ness which has remained ever since."
Now Dr. Ann Faraday is a psychologist, and was doing dream based work, this lead her to her experience. However, I am thinking that you are a Christian Mystic or similar ( I really don't know), but what I would assume is that repetitive prayer is what you are practicing, and this I think would produce a more "joyful" experience. But again I stress, these are just intuitive impressions from posts of yours that I have read, I could be entirely wrong. Maybe the egoless state is rather joyless, just impartial, I just don't know. One thing of interest to me is that Dr. Faraday wrote two amazing books on dreaming, Dream Power and The Dream Game, before her awakening, and has not wrote a thing since, this makes me wonder a great deal about her opinion of her work prior to her awakening. I still think her books rock, and am practicing the method myself.
I don't know why I am telling you all this, it just seemed that I should. Thanks for posting here, I really like your viewpoints.
Dreamgirl
I have read similar accounts of this experience happing to a handful of people, this is a particular interest to me, the ones I remember are Dr. Ann Faraday and Meta Zetta, and Lee Lozowick, the two latter I know little about. These few people have had a spontaneous awakening during sleep, to awake without an ego. Sounds fortunate to me, and I suspect this is what is happening to you. You already strike me as someone who is awakened, and thus you are at the doorway of being completely ego free. Here is what Ann Faraday has to say about what happened to her, I get this from Anglefire, but I could not copy and paste, so I am just re-typing it. Here goes:
"And far from being a matter of regret, this loss of self came as a distinct relief. In fact when bits and pieces of my old identity - hopes, fears, goals, memories, spritual aspirations and all the rest - began to recollect as I awoke, I tried to fight them off, in much the same way, perhaps, as the reluctant surviviors of near-death experiences resist the return to life's little boxes. But unlike those survivors, I brought back no blissful sense of divine presence or of a mission to accomplish, nor even immitations of immortality - just a total inner and outer Empty-ness which has remained ever since."
Now Dr. Ann Faraday is a psychologist, and was doing dream based work, this lead her to her experience. However, I am thinking that you are a Christian Mystic or similar ( I really don't know), but what I would assume is that repetitive prayer is what you are practicing, and this I think would produce a more "joyful" experience. But again I stress, these are just intuitive impressions from posts of yours that I have read, I could be entirely wrong. Maybe the egoless state is rather joyless, just impartial, I just don't know. One thing of interest to me is that Dr. Faraday wrote two amazing books on dreaming, Dream Power and The Dream Game, before her awakening, and has not wrote a thing since, this makes me wonder a great deal about her opinion of her work prior to her awakening. I still think her books rock, and am practicing the method myself.
I don't know why I am telling you all this, it just seemed that I should. Thanks for posting here, I really like your viewpoints.
Dreamgirl