07-08-2014, 12:00 AM
7/6-7/14 Highrise 150th floor/China room, Melted work ROYGBIV, Repetitions of 3 Triune (for 3 hours)
We board a plane, oddly enough, we have flown to china for some sort of vacation, but it did not feel like a leisurely vacation. Also the destination seemed off to me at the time, why we were going there i wasn't sure. The surrounding were odd, not so completely formed, like have rendered computer graphics...unless I looked ahead. there was a super tall building, that towered above the rest, with a larger (in area) but not not so tall building (like 30 stories) built around the base. Looking in this direction, the images were fully formed, shift my seeing too much, and it was like Red green blue of a 3d projection, a bit fuzzy.
We go right to the towering, vaguely spire shaped central building. The squat building is vast and opulent, and crowded. Stepping into it is like walking into the entry to a vast, sweeping conference center or casino, a very active space. there is a broad stairway/ramp that climbs up and up, past levels bustling with activity. Our things are taken up for us. At the top of the stairs, is a curiously small reception area, its not where people usually check in. For most, this top part is a broad walkway around the open space, the center, about 8 stories up. We "check in" here. We don't all go to the same spaces, some go here, others there. and the cost meaning of that is dependant on the individual. Im going up. the spire, to find my room. there is an elevator, somewhat small, to get in. When i get in, i get in alone. Its a small elevator, and the panel is strange. A space for the room key to be inserted. and then these strange buttons, one with the symbol for flowing water, other symbols. when i touch them, they know where i am to go. the glow blue and connect, like a pattern. I also use my key. the elevator...it shoots up so fast, i don't feel acceleration, but i know its very speedy. within less then a minute, I get out of the tube. Its is a large clean hall, but relative tot he base, their isn't that much space here. I find my room door, it matches the key combination i pressed, and do the same and insert the room key. It opens to a large almost penthouse like hotel suite. Two rooms, with their own beds, living area and its own kitchen etc. the windows. I go to one. I look out. The ground is so far away, its like everything is seen through a milky haze, due to the height. also, my dream body feels shifted up here then down below, not less solid, but less kludgy somehow.
I unpack my now small Case, laying clothes out on a bed. I see someone else, i think a man, is doing so in his room, but i don't see him. I move around the shape of the room, feeling. My self, body, is easily drawn up. to the outside. Its almost a blank space, so milky, unfinished like the ground was before. So very high, Fear. Most are afraid, roll off, something communicates to me. I dont see color up here, or solid forms, even in my body, just outlines. This is almost as far up at "solid matter" goes, beyond here, above, its energy like...this point was the place where a tower from below, and a energy shape from above, meet. Between them is a blank space, half here half not. this part was that transition. the room i got was not far below this point.
I was a bit overwhelmed. I go back to the room. I want to go down. As i wait for the tube elevator. Something, something i saw in the room. Comes to me. Its is not easy to go up and down, infact, it may be dangerous in some way. Every time i go up, and go down, i am compensated, rather well, in money/energy. For doing it. No one is compensated for free, in fact this space, particularly the bottom, traders experience for energy/money. Nobody rides for free. So the fact i'm being "compensated" for simply riding, is strange to me. Must be a "special skill". Or something. I go down. Back to the ledge above the large lower space. I go down to earn some "money" but i don't see anyone. I want to go back up. I see a group of about 20 smartly dressed men and women. So i follow them, to see what is around to see. They go into an elevator the size of a small room. It is fancy. I dont see any keys to press like before, just more or less standard elevator buttons. I'm fumbling. One of the women seems annoyed, goes past me to punch in this groups destination, and look at me strange. the elevator seems slow. I mention something about this elevator is different. As i'm looking at the numbers, i see it only goes up to the 30th floor. I say to no one in particular, "this isn't the right one, i need the 150th floor". One of them says in chinese (but i hear english) "No elevator goes up that high, this building is not that tall". I say, well, perhaps i got in a staff elevator? It was private. they look at me strange. Like a hobo is talking about the VIP access and scoff even. Well whatever it doesn't bug me. But i can feel i'm not getting paid anything for this ride. this elevator tops, and they get out, and the groups break off. Its very late. I amy be hungry. there are restaurants up here. the nicer ones. I follow a smell/sound. I pas through a hall, where young women are attending to children. I think i'm walking through a day care place while adults do other things. It makes me smile, because its so nice and calm somehow. I cut this way to a restaurant.
"Aerials"
Life is a waterfall
we're one in the river
and one again after the fall
swimming through the void
we hear the word
we lose ourselves
but we find it all....
cause we are the ones that want to play
always want to go
but you never want to stay
and we are the ones that want to choose
always want to play
but you never want to lose
aerials, in the sky
when you lose small mind
you free your life
life is a waterfall
we drink from the river
then we turn around and put up our walls
swimming through the void
we hear the word
we lose ourselves
but we find it all...
cause we are the ones that want to play
always want to go
but you never want to stay
and we are the ones that want to choose
always want to play
but you never want to lose
aerials, in the sky
when you lose small mind
you free your life
aerials, so up high
when you free your eyes eternal prize
aerials, in the sky
when you lose small mind
you free your life
aerials, so up high
when you free your eyes eternal prize
It looks a bit...cheesy. Its dark lacquered wood, and modern, but it was clearly made to look "chinese" and screams "a place for tourists". And infact, i can see some food. Its americanized stuff like orange chicken etc, well made, but clearly for tourists. Not that i mind. there are only one or two people here, and a bartender behind a bar on one side. and a nice view of the city at night. I see staff, eating. Drinking, i think its after most of their shifts. I don't think this place is really open...its open 24 hours, but this is a dead time mostly. I sit quietly to look outside, i know i've earned a bit of credit jut for going down. So i can more than afford a meal. But i'm not that hungry. How do i order? I don't really worry, i'm looking out the clear window. The bartender comes. He pours me a drink, its a golden rich amber type color. Something from fermented rice and other things. He pours himself some. He sits near me and smiles, but its quiet, i drink half the glass. No a woman, a server but she feels like the childcare ones. sits a seat away from me on the other side. She has some sort of cake. Sesami seed, i can smell that, and some honey, light honey based glaze and sesami seed. Its a cake, but light and airy. she cuts a piece for me, and says to try it, so i do. she doesn't say but i know. Its rela quiet. But nice. Nice glow. eat the piece of cake, drink the drink. I could ask for more, but i take what was offered, i don't need more really, not hungry or anything. When its time to go, i feel, a man shows me to the elevator i wanted (it can stop here too) I get in it, press the keys, and go back to my room. I lay on the bed to sleep. As i begin to sleep, it fades like on the roof. It would be possible to fall i suppose. But i wont i know. the milky clouds, look like a painting, as the solidity dissolves, i bend up to the other space. Im not worried, i drift into sleep, and leave this space.
The next dream i remember. Its that old job in retail, or that setting. I walk into it. but...its strange. Its like the wracks of clothes, isles, are partly melted somehow, like half melted wax, or plastic in a toy making over. the roof has melted away. Its all fused. there are no real customers, or staff left. I find a few, sitting in the offices in the back, shuffling papers around. Its almost like a war. something happened, a blast. And some beings are left tied to the memory, going through motions. somehow i'm relieved. I go out into the melted sales floor. and start on a wrack of half melted clothes. I seem to remember allot. ROYGBIV. Red Orange Yellow Green Blue Indigo violet. that show we were supposed to arrange the shades on a wrack. Leave one to one half a finger space between hangers for maximum appeal. Not too crowded, not to spare. Its like combing hair, its soothing. I repeat roygbiv to myself like a mantra, as i untangle the fused things and make them nice. I do a large area., and somehow, this fixes the roof around where i work, and the sales staff comes back to the floor. I even Color code/untangle a register area. I'm really relaxed, its not like working at all. Its like, soothing my hands. Like playing with legos. Thats not really work either. But somehow, like the elevator, to someone else, it is. As i work ad work, more and more its just separating melted COLORS not even the pretense of form. Me being sing song. I keep working in a circular pattern. Soon, its like symbols. then, its like just light, similar to the roof area in dream before. but that was clear void. this is fused colors, separating them like fixing hair or strands. work on and on. Take some notes wake a bit here, then go back into it.
Newton's asymmetric color wheel correlates colors with musical notes and planetary symbols
Back in sleep, it continues like this. Separating, but there is no dream, just sensations now. At some point this transitions. the best way to describe it is three overlapping circles, stacked like a pyramid. It ha the quality of the color wheels, but they are clear. they are...sound. tones. three different tones, then the overlap tones. Sometimes i hear one more strongly then another, sometimes all at once. Im focussed on them, around them, in them, but in different frequencies. Its gentle and effortless, but i'm hyper attentive to it. It seems i just exist in it, hearing.feelings, touching? for an hour. then an ugly flat sound. My alarm. I effortlessly use my hand to hit snooze button. Without breaking concentration. The longer i stay in it, the easier it becomes. I hit snooze many times (alarm was set for 9am) Its easier and more effortless and...hard to explain, deep? the longer i'm in it. At one point, not looking, betwen around the sound/shape feeling. are dreams. hyper lucid. A forest, a planet, things i cant explain. but i don't look At them, they are around, not concentrated on. All in on the tone. Periodically hitting snooze button. Something tells me a word. triune. doesn't mean anything in particular to me, accept it was specific, not triad. At one point, i feel my body coughing, my throat itches i'm coughing allot. I sorta shift it somehow to ease it. I dont stop to look at it or feel it, i just do. Feels dry inside, when i wake i know i could get a drink stop it. More snooze button. After along time, the tones, i'm full. Done. I dont wake right away. its slow. Its hard to say when i wake. Its the opposite of falling asleep lucid. I wake gently and lucid, without a clear transition. Its not the alarm. I finally open my eyes and rise, between the alarm pulses. Its not 11 am. I was doing that for two hours. but it didn't feel like it to me, but i knew.
I didn't wake energized exactly, but i woke up calm and shifted, skin tingling. all day today, i've been feeling and sensing people, a little concentration, or awareness pull, and feelings from people. It was interesting. And nice. When i was preparing to write i looked up some things from notes. I was pretty excited, what i found about the roygbiv, and the triune.
We board a plane, oddly enough, we have flown to china for some sort of vacation, but it did not feel like a leisurely vacation. Also the destination seemed off to me at the time, why we were going there i wasn't sure. The surrounding were odd, not so completely formed, like have rendered computer graphics...unless I looked ahead. there was a super tall building, that towered above the rest, with a larger (in area) but not not so tall building (like 30 stories) built around the base. Looking in this direction, the images were fully formed, shift my seeing too much, and it was like Red green blue of a 3d projection, a bit fuzzy.
We go right to the towering, vaguely spire shaped central building. The squat building is vast and opulent, and crowded. Stepping into it is like walking into the entry to a vast, sweeping conference center or casino, a very active space. there is a broad stairway/ramp that climbs up and up, past levels bustling with activity. Our things are taken up for us. At the top of the stairs, is a curiously small reception area, its not where people usually check in. For most, this top part is a broad walkway around the open space, the center, about 8 stories up. We "check in" here. We don't all go to the same spaces, some go here, others there. and the cost meaning of that is dependant on the individual. Im going up. the spire, to find my room. there is an elevator, somewhat small, to get in. When i get in, i get in alone. Its a small elevator, and the panel is strange. A space for the room key to be inserted. and then these strange buttons, one with the symbol for flowing water, other symbols. when i touch them, they know where i am to go. the glow blue and connect, like a pattern. I also use my key. the elevator...it shoots up so fast, i don't feel acceleration, but i know its very speedy. within less then a minute, I get out of the tube. Its is a large clean hall, but relative tot he base, their isn't that much space here. I find my room door, it matches the key combination i pressed, and do the same and insert the room key. It opens to a large almost penthouse like hotel suite. Two rooms, with their own beds, living area and its own kitchen etc. the windows. I go to one. I look out. The ground is so far away, its like everything is seen through a milky haze, due to the height. also, my dream body feels shifted up here then down below, not less solid, but less kludgy somehow.
I unpack my now small Case, laying clothes out on a bed. I see someone else, i think a man, is doing so in his room, but i don't see him. I move around the shape of the room, feeling. My self, body, is easily drawn up. to the outside. Its almost a blank space, so milky, unfinished like the ground was before. So very high, Fear. Most are afraid, roll off, something communicates to me. I dont see color up here, or solid forms, even in my body, just outlines. This is almost as far up at "solid matter" goes, beyond here, above, its energy like...this point was the place where a tower from below, and a energy shape from above, meet. Between them is a blank space, half here half not. this part was that transition. the room i got was not far below this point.
I was a bit overwhelmed. I go back to the room. I want to go down. As i wait for the tube elevator. Something, something i saw in the room. Comes to me. Its is not easy to go up and down, infact, it may be dangerous in some way. Every time i go up, and go down, i am compensated, rather well, in money/energy. For doing it. No one is compensated for free, in fact this space, particularly the bottom, traders experience for energy/money. Nobody rides for free. So the fact i'm being "compensated" for simply riding, is strange to me. Must be a "special skill". Or something. I go down. Back to the ledge above the large lower space. I go down to earn some "money" but i don't see anyone. I want to go back up. I see a group of about 20 smartly dressed men and women. So i follow them, to see what is around to see. They go into an elevator the size of a small room. It is fancy. I dont see any keys to press like before, just more or less standard elevator buttons. I'm fumbling. One of the women seems annoyed, goes past me to punch in this groups destination, and look at me strange. the elevator seems slow. I mention something about this elevator is different. As i'm looking at the numbers, i see it only goes up to the 30th floor. I say to no one in particular, "this isn't the right one, i need the 150th floor". One of them says in chinese (but i hear english) "No elevator goes up that high, this building is not that tall". I say, well, perhaps i got in a staff elevator? It was private. they look at me strange. Like a hobo is talking about the VIP access and scoff even. Well whatever it doesn't bug me. But i can feel i'm not getting paid anything for this ride. this elevator tops, and they get out, and the groups break off. Its very late. I amy be hungry. there are restaurants up here. the nicer ones. I follow a smell/sound. I pas through a hall, where young women are attending to children. I think i'm walking through a day care place while adults do other things. It makes me smile, because its so nice and calm somehow. I cut this way to a restaurant.
"Aerials"
Life is a waterfall
we're one in the river
and one again after the fall
swimming through the void
we hear the word
we lose ourselves
but we find it all....
cause we are the ones that want to play
always want to go
but you never want to stay
and we are the ones that want to choose
always want to play
but you never want to lose
aerials, in the sky
when you lose small mind
you free your life
life is a waterfall
we drink from the river
then we turn around and put up our walls
swimming through the void
we hear the word
we lose ourselves
but we find it all...
cause we are the ones that want to play
always want to go
but you never want to stay
and we are the ones that want to choose
always want to play
but you never want to lose
aerials, in the sky
when you lose small mind
you free your life
aerials, so up high
when you free your eyes eternal prize
aerials, in the sky
when you lose small mind
you free your life
aerials, so up high
when you free your eyes eternal prize
It looks a bit...cheesy. Its dark lacquered wood, and modern, but it was clearly made to look "chinese" and screams "a place for tourists". And infact, i can see some food. Its americanized stuff like orange chicken etc, well made, but clearly for tourists. Not that i mind. there are only one or two people here, and a bartender behind a bar on one side. and a nice view of the city at night. I see staff, eating. Drinking, i think its after most of their shifts. I don't think this place is really open...its open 24 hours, but this is a dead time mostly. I sit quietly to look outside, i know i've earned a bit of credit jut for going down. So i can more than afford a meal. But i'm not that hungry. How do i order? I don't really worry, i'm looking out the clear window. The bartender comes. He pours me a drink, its a golden rich amber type color. Something from fermented rice and other things. He pours himself some. He sits near me and smiles, but its quiet, i drink half the glass. No a woman, a server but she feels like the childcare ones. sits a seat away from me on the other side. She has some sort of cake. Sesami seed, i can smell that, and some honey, light honey based glaze and sesami seed. Its a cake, but light and airy. she cuts a piece for me, and says to try it, so i do. she doesn't say but i know. Its rela quiet. But nice. Nice glow. eat the piece of cake, drink the drink. I could ask for more, but i take what was offered, i don't need more really, not hungry or anything. When its time to go, i feel, a man shows me to the elevator i wanted (it can stop here too) I get in it, press the keys, and go back to my room. I lay on the bed to sleep. As i begin to sleep, it fades like on the roof. It would be possible to fall i suppose. But i wont i know. the milky clouds, look like a painting, as the solidity dissolves, i bend up to the other space. Im not worried, i drift into sleep, and leave this space.
The next dream i remember. Its that old job in retail, or that setting. I walk into it. but...its strange. Its like the wracks of clothes, isles, are partly melted somehow, like half melted wax, or plastic in a toy making over. the roof has melted away. Its all fused. there are no real customers, or staff left. I find a few, sitting in the offices in the back, shuffling papers around. Its almost like a war. something happened, a blast. And some beings are left tied to the memory, going through motions. somehow i'm relieved. I go out into the melted sales floor. and start on a wrack of half melted clothes. I seem to remember allot. ROYGBIV. Red Orange Yellow Green Blue Indigo violet. that show we were supposed to arrange the shades on a wrack. Leave one to one half a finger space between hangers for maximum appeal. Not too crowded, not to spare. Its like combing hair, its soothing. I repeat roygbiv to myself like a mantra, as i untangle the fused things and make them nice. I do a large area., and somehow, this fixes the roof around where i work, and the sales staff comes back to the floor. I even Color code/untangle a register area. I'm really relaxed, its not like working at all. Its like, soothing my hands. Like playing with legos. Thats not really work either. But somehow, like the elevator, to someone else, it is. As i work ad work, more and more its just separating melted COLORS not even the pretense of form. Me being sing song. I keep working in a circular pattern. Soon, its like symbols. then, its like just light, similar to the roof area in dream before. but that was clear void. this is fused colors, separating them like fixing hair or strands. work on and on. Take some notes wake a bit here, then go back into it.
Newton's asymmetric color wheel correlates colors with musical notes and planetary symbols
Back in sleep, it continues like this. Separating, but there is no dream, just sensations now. At some point this transitions. the best way to describe it is three overlapping circles, stacked like a pyramid. It ha the quality of the color wheels, but they are clear. they are...sound. tones. three different tones, then the overlap tones. Sometimes i hear one more strongly then another, sometimes all at once. Im focussed on them, around them, in them, but in different frequencies. Its gentle and effortless, but i'm hyper attentive to it. It seems i just exist in it, hearing.feelings, touching? for an hour. then an ugly flat sound. My alarm. I effortlessly use my hand to hit snooze button. Without breaking concentration. The longer i stay in it, the easier it becomes. I hit snooze many times (alarm was set for 9am) Its easier and more effortless and...hard to explain, deep? the longer i'm in it. At one point, not looking, betwen around the sound/shape feeling. are dreams. hyper lucid. A forest, a planet, things i cant explain. but i don't look At them, they are around, not concentrated on. All in on the tone. Periodically hitting snooze button. Something tells me a word. triune. doesn't mean anything in particular to me, accept it was specific, not triad. At one point, i feel my body coughing, my throat itches i'm coughing allot. I sorta shift it somehow to ease it. I dont stop to look at it or feel it, i just do. Feels dry inside, when i wake i know i could get a drink stop it. More snooze button. After along time, the tones, i'm full. Done. I dont wake right away. its slow. Its hard to say when i wake. Its the opposite of falling asleep lucid. I wake gently and lucid, without a clear transition. Its not the alarm. I finally open my eyes and rise, between the alarm pulses. Its not 11 am. I was doing that for two hours. but it didn't feel like it to me, but i knew.
I didn't wake energized exactly, but i woke up calm and shifted, skin tingling. all day today, i've been feeling and sensing people, a little concentration, or awareness pull, and feelings from people. It was interesting. And nice. When i was preparing to write i looked up some things from notes. I was pretty excited, what i found about the roygbiv, and the triune.