02-20-2015, 12:00 AM
yesterday seemed to be a day of death of the old / birth of the new, seemed to be reflected everywhere i looked. was very interesting as some things happened which gave me a completely new perspective on life. as well as things ending i caught glimpses of the birth of new things, people in love, new opportunities, new things.
i opened the curtain and startled a fox, quite a big one, just milling about in the street. i became aware of all my movement and started meditating, i knew that he had only ran down the alley and seemed to want to come back. i waited as i watched him moving further away down the alley til almost out of sight. i could see him turning his head every so often. i distracted myself for a bit then moved silently to the window and sure enough, he started coming back. i remembered what serloco mentioned about how animals can be allies, and so i intended communication with the fox. he seemed not to be aware of me, i got the idea of going out into the street but thought i would probably just scare him again. i watched as he sniffed the ground then jumped thru a fence.
animals and people, in fact everything is not the same in my world. as i have become a part of the mystery, people are no longer fixed, people are fluid magical beings who have the power to see my situation and speak to me directly. as opposed to before where i was just a guy wandering round a mundane world with people who i (cringe) cast as 'idiots', absolutely shocking. i learnt a while ago that everything we say and do is of importance because we shape our worlds this way, obviously, but it wasnt so obvious to me, i was very judgemental and carried on even when i learnt that this is not impeccable, it was a hard habit to shake. i never really consciously dropped this habit, my world just changed completely and now everyone i meet is a magical beautiful being and i am in awe of people now. i listen intently to what they say as it speaks to me in ways i cannot describe. like last night i was hanging out with some friends that i previously explained i had a strange old time with at one point in my life, now that my perception has completely changed i feel much better in their company and have only ever had traces of what was, fleeting memories of the weirdness of it all, but it doesnt affect me now. im totally calm and collected and i dont repeat the same mental processes which caused the weirdness, therefore it doesnt manifest any more. sometimes i see how the world tries to trick me into falling into my old patterns, but i am aware of this and simply do not act upon it, i let the thoughts come and go without attaching importance.
and remembering what serloco mentioned, i sort of got an idea of how these magical people move me, and how i can move them through intent. the universe placed a beautiful girl in my world with the same name as a previous gf (one that lasted most of my life, it was love but we both had many problems, it wasnt working), how could i not fall in love at first sight? this is not the same as anything i have felt before, as i am completely detached, i have no need to pursue a relationship or even to take any action, i have never been in love with someone and simultaneously had no desire to 'go for it' if you will. at first it was different, i did fall into old patterns but quickly realised my mistakes and stopped. now i will just let her be who she is, not trying to move her at all, i know she is a magical being and potentially could be a great seer / telepath (i dont know how i know this but i do, without any doubt), i see stars in her eyes, she could be the most famous woman on the planet.
sirius was so bright and flashing beautifully all night. since i started mapping the sky at night (recognising constellations etc), i am in awe of sirius, it really catches my eye, changing colours and always so big and bright. i intended communication whilst in meditation and perceived some unusual effects but nothing amazing as yet. it is something that im interested in and so i will continue whenever i get the chance.
as i mentioned before, i was reading a old post (sorcerers explanation reviewed) and thinking about the way i have been moved by CC / DJ, and to what extent i have misinterpreted the teaching there, how it couldve been compounded by my research into other magical traditions, in short, what have i done, what am i doing, what has happened, and what should i do moving forward. and i was thinking that after reading this forum for years, and sorcerers world (QS forum) before that, how i have been changed by all of your thoughts/ideas/mental processes, and everything all became a little clearer to me.
i see that the universe will provide answers to my questions, its not that i have or am misinterpreting things thats the issue, i will learn in my own time and will be guided in the unfolding of my own path, i neednt worry about such things. all i need to do is intend to progress and continue to act on the suggestions of spirit. in a way i can't go 'wrong', even if i take a wrong turn, 'things always turn out for the best', and i will learn even more sometimes through this.
i mean i was even worried that what i was saying here was just copied from other people (as a lot of things i say seem similar to things that i have read) and it was irrelevant, etc, etc. i now see how using this forum is very beneficial to me, i even feel others sending me positive thoughts...i have never really consciously developed my telepath abilities, but it is something that i feel being enhanced within my experience, and that i am getting there.
i am still unable to recall my dreams that well (i had fleeting memories of some amazing things i was doing in dreams last night this morning tho), and am not sure that i have even crossed the first gate yet. i realise how my meditation is helping to bridge the gap between my waking life and dreaming, and i will continue to practice every night until something gives, but the solution i feel is that i need to focus on intending to dream during this meditation time, i need to drive the point home that i want to be aware of falling asleep and direct all my effort towards that. i have realised that intending something is sometimes a matter of just doing it, even if you never done something like it before, and i feel that i will make progress some time soon.
i opened the curtain and startled a fox, quite a big one, just milling about in the street. i became aware of all my movement and started meditating, i knew that he had only ran down the alley and seemed to want to come back. i waited as i watched him moving further away down the alley til almost out of sight. i could see him turning his head every so often. i distracted myself for a bit then moved silently to the window and sure enough, he started coming back. i remembered what serloco mentioned about how animals can be allies, and so i intended communication with the fox. he seemed not to be aware of me, i got the idea of going out into the street but thought i would probably just scare him again. i watched as he sniffed the ground then jumped thru a fence.
animals and people, in fact everything is not the same in my world. as i have become a part of the mystery, people are no longer fixed, people are fluid magical beings who have the power to see my situation and speak to me directly. as opposed to before where i was just a guy wandering round a mundane world with people who i (cringe) cast as 'idiots', absolutely shocking. i learnt a while ago that everything we say and do is of importance because we shape our worlds this way, obviously, but it wasnt so obvious to me, i was very judgemental and carried on even when i learnt that this is not impeccable, it was a hard habit to shake. i never really consciously dropped this habit, my world just changed completely and now everyone i meet is a magical beautiful being and i am in awe of people now. i listen intently to what they say as it speaks to me in ways i cannot describe. like last night i was hanging out with some friends that i previously explained i had a strange old time with at one point in my life, now that my perception has completely changed i feel much better in their company and have only ever had traces of what was, fleeting memories of the weirdness of it all, but it doesnt affect me now. im totally calm and collected and i dont repeat the same mental processes which caused the weirdness, therefore it doesnt manifest any more. sometimes i see how the world tries to trick me into falling into my old patterns, but i am aware of this and simply do not act upon it, i let the thoughts come and go without attaching importance.
and remembering what serloco mentioned, i sort of got an idea of how these magical people move me, and how i can move them through intent. the universe placed a beautiful girl in my world with the same name as a previous gf (one that lasted most of my life, it was love but we both had many problems, it wasnt working), how could i not fall in love at first sight? this is not the same as anything i have felt before, as i am completely detached, i have no need to pursue a relationship or even to take any action, i have never been in love with someone and simultaneously had no desire to 'go for it' if you will. at first it was different, i did fall into old patterns but quickly realised my mistakes and stopped. now i will just let her be who she is, not trying to move her at all, i know she is a magical being and potentially could be a great seer / telepath (i dont know how i know this but i do, without any doubt), i see stars in her eyes, she could be the most famous woman on the planet.
sirius was so bright and flashing beautifully all night. since i started mapping the sky at night (recognising constellations etc), i am in awe of sirius, it really catches my eye, changing colours and always so big and bright. i intended communication whilst in meditation and perceived some unusual effects but nothing amazing as yet. it is something that im interested in and so i will continue whenever i get the chance.
as i mentioned before, i was reading a old post (sorcerers explanation reviewed) and thinking about the way i have been moved by CC / DJ, and to what extent i have misinterpreted the teaching there, how it couldve been compounded by my research into other magical traditions, in short, what have i done, what am i doing, what has happened, and what should i do moving forward. and i was thinking that after reading this forum for years, and sorcerers world (QS forum) before that, how i have been changed by all of your thoughts/ideas/mental processes, and everything all became a little clearer to me.
i see that the universe will provide answers to my questions, its not that i have or am misinterpreting things thats the issue, i will learn in my own time and will be guided in the unfolding of my own path, i neednt worry about such things. all i need to do is intend to progress and continue to act on the suggestions of spirit. in a way i can't go 'wrong', even if i take a wrong turn, 'things always turn out for the best', and i will learn even more sometimes through this.
i mean i was even worried that what i was saying here was just copied from other people (as a lot of things i say seem similar to things that i have read) and it was irrelevant, etc, etc. i now see how using this forum is very beneficial to me, i even feel others sending me positive thoughts...i have never really consciously developed my telepath abilities, but it is something that i feel being enhanced within my experience, and that i am getting there.
i am still unable to recall my dreams that well (i had fleeting memories of some amazing things i was doing in dreams last night this morning tho), and am not sure that i have even crossed the first gate yet. i realise how my meditation is helping to bridge the gap between my waking life and dreaming, and i will continue to practice every night until something gives, but the solution i feel is that i need to focus on intending to dream during this meditation time, i need to drive the point home that i want to be aware of falling asleep and direct all my effort towards that. i have realised that intending something is sometimes a matter of just doing it, even if you never done something like it before, and i feel that i will make progress some time soon.