12-11-2015, 12:00 AM
well this post is weird, but i guess i am learning, i laugh a lot at the stuff i wrote, ah well.
i decided to do more posting, and didnt know where to start and figured a recap would be fun. my dreaming is getting better, im starting to recall a lot more, however i know that i need to focus more, and practice more. this is where dreaming attention comes into play, and im just starting to learn how to use this effectively. by this i mean that i feel that i can act with my energy body more, so i am dealing with energy in terms of energy, and i am able to shift my ap fluidly, i can hold whatever position i need to and am getting better at this. self-stalking has been the key to this, i am good at this and i like the archetype of the hunter, i see that these two abilities hunting and dreaming are constantly at play. letting the ap drift with dreaming and stalking the position. i do this in my waking life a lot and since it was made aware to me that i have a natural talent for it, i find it difficult to see why i find dreaming so difficult (even though this might seem obvious).
i know that i must use my imagination more (lol) and so i have decided to do more writing exercises, like philip k dick used to do - for his books he used to imagine these worlds and put the characters there, test out different situations, destroy the whole world and then bring it back in a different way, when i heard this described i knew that it was possible for me to do this easily, since id actually done things like this when writing in the past - and i am as always. writing lyrics and music. i played civilisation recently, on serloco's recommendation, and found that this was a great way to time travel (ie be completley absorbed in a game for around 12 hrs, and make it seem like it's only been 1 hr it has been a great game for me since the first one came out, i love it, and i was impressed by the evolution of the game. this game really helped me to use my imagination more, and i will be playing some more soon. i have a much more fun time with skyrim though, i think this game is great for sorcerers, even if it is 'tonal' ****. i thought it was funny reading back what i wrote on imagination / dreaming before, i know that most of the stuff i wrote is semi-legible madness but i felt that this part was interesting at least.
Feelings - wise, i am getting better at reading peoples energy and dealing with energy in terms of energy for example when i sing along to a song i am almost matching emenations i guess, as i listen to the voice and go for those particular inflections, i sometimes put on the accent and use the same textures as they do and match the voice more accurately but this takes away from my natural voice so i only do this to practice singing different ways and more importantly texture, as i want kind smooth but at the same time rough around the edges, the best example for me is billie joe from green day. i had a few singing lessons a few months ago and this really helped me to find my voice from the stomach. i had been practicing for a while but it was only about a week ago that i actually made the intent firmly that i would learn to sing well and nice and that it would be easy for me, i used the energy of my negative thoughts (telling me my voice was never goin to sound good - HA!) into a intent that i would not give up and that i would focus all my energy into learning to sing well - Once and for all! it's funny i learnt that dreaming happens when you give it purpose, dreaming attention blooms when you give it purpose. it may seem obvious, but when it clicked for me i (rememberd/ knew) learnt how to sing in like a couple of hours, that night i was literally in heaven singing all my favourite singers and doing it so well.
i decided to do more posting, and didnt know where to start and figured a recap would be fun. my dreaming is getting better, im starting to recall a lot more, however i know that i need to focus more, and practice more. this is where dreaming attention comes into play, and im just starting to learn how to use this effectively. by this i mean that i feel that i can act with my energy body more, so i am dealing with energy in terms of energy, and i am able to shift my ap fluidly, i can hold whatever position i need to and am getting better at this. self-stalking has been the key to this, i am good at this and i like the archetype of the hunter, i see that these two abilities hunting and dreaming are constantly at play. letting the ap drift with dreaming and stalking the position. i do this in my waking life a lot and since it was made aware to me that i have a natural talent for it, i find it difficult to see why i find dreaming so difficult (even though this might seem obvious).
i know that i must use my imagination more (lol) and so i have decided to do more writing exercises, like philip k dick used to do - for his books he used to imagine these worlds and put the characters there, test out different situations, destroy the whole world and then bring it back in a different way, when i heard this described i knew that it was possible for me to do this easily, since id actually done things like this when writing in the past - and i am as always. writing lyrics and music. i played civilisation recently, on serloco's recommendation, and found that this was a great way to time travel (ie be completley absorbed in a game for around 12 hrs, and make it seem like it's only been 1 hr it has been a great game for me since the first one came out, i love it, and i was impressed by the evolution of the game. this game really helped me to use my imagination more, and i will be playing some more soon. i have a much more fun time with skyrim though, i think this game is great for sorcerers, even if it is 'tonal' ****. i thought it was funny reading back what i wrote on imagination / dreaming before, i know that most of the stuff i wrote is semi-legible madness but i felt that this part was interesting at least.
Feelings - wise, i am getting better at reading peoples energy and dealing with energy in terms of energy for example when i sing along to a song i am almost matching emenations i guess, as i listen to the voice and go for those particular inflections, i sometimes put on the accent and use the same textures as they do and match the voice more accurately but this takes away from my natural voice so i only do this to practice singing different ways and more importantly texture, as i want kind smooth but at the same time rough around the edges, the best example for me is billie joe from green day. i had a few singing lessons a few months ago and this really helped me to find my voice from the stomach. i had been practicing for a while but it was only about a week ago that i actually made the intent firmly that i would learn to sing well and nice and that it would be easy for me, i used the energy of my negative thoughts (telling me my voice was never goin to sound good - HA!) into a intent that i would not give up and that i would focus all my energy into learning to sing well - Once and for all! it's funny i learnt that dreaming happens when you give it purpose, dreaming attention blooms when you give it purpose. it may seem obvious, but when it clicked for me i (rememberd/ knew) learnt how to sing in like a couple of hours, that night i was literally in heaven singing all my favourite singers and doing it so well.