absolution

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my connection with God is amazing, and i feel the need to mention this as it is unusual, i mean cc was practically athiest. i remember a time when i was reading a lot of cc and didnt know what to do with this feeling that i have had all my life that God is here with me and has been looking out for me at all times, some times i just chose to ignore that. talking with serloco i have felt my connection with God enhanced, matured. my connection to God became a power or a source of energy, i feel like God has taken me out of time and space on a number of occassions, i have talked with God. this is not self importance, it is not difficult, and this is natural for me, i know that anyone could do this. i participated in an ayahuasca ceremony with a shaman and this was very much a unification for me with God and Spirit. i felt that aya, i see her as a female spirit, connected with me numerous times before the ceremony and gave me the strength to follow my own way and eased my fears completely. aya touched me, held me for a long time in her arms during that ceremony, and i felt that she is a strong protector of everyone. a powerful force that seems to be friendly with humans i guess. the shaman spoke of her as almost deity, and told us how her connection has helped humanity for a very long time, and she is just so subtle that she doesnt care to take the credit for the work she does. and so through the power of aya i saw the 'spirit world', i journeyed in the second attention, i have yet to recap the majority of the experience, it will come with time, what i was left with was a sense of protection. i know that aya is my protector as well as my ally and God, and i feel a connection with her - mainly through the hauntingly beautiful melodies of the aya songs (youtube ayahuasca shaman songs or whatever... there is usually a rhythmic backing which is like the footsteps - when Genaro walks funny, and dj explains that muffled footsteps make the ap move - and this is very powerful), i feel i have heard them before and know them, and as a musician i can appreciate the intricate melodies and i feel inspired just remembering. 
i recently read the alchemist by paolo coelho, this book is about sorcery and God and i recommend it to anyone. it inspired me and showed me once again that love is the driving force, i follow the path of heart and i am one with God, all my acts are acts of love as i intended. i have had a difficult time seeing this, and then i was randomly drawn to re-read this book (thank you Spirit), and it helped me connect with the path of heart very clearly. i say re-read, but i listened to the audio book on youtube read by Jeremy Irons (who is awesome, and really funny, i used to like listening to him reading on the radio when i was a kid - so this was pretty cool)

alchemy is a beautiful subject for me, and i have always been inspired by it. i know that it is the same things as what cc/dj say, its just another way of looking at it.