12-18-2015, 12:00 AM
yes, i see what you're saying.
recapping i have realised that basically just judgements that i still held, and i get that sorcery isnt something you learn, in a way it is just awareness, not to demeen things. i see that i am UNlearning conditioning, judgements, like dj said you pit the two worlds together to get to the 'truth', and i see that entering the sorcerers world i am now stopping my judgements, not doing. it is much better not to write in the style i have been. i know all of this yet i didnt catch myself in time previously when posting. i write for two reasons, for my 'self' and for others, yet i have found that maybe its pointless to write for 'others', you see that in my world for a long time i saw that people were confused and weren't doing what their hearts told them, and it confused me, actually it used to piss me off that people were so stupid - and this is what i have stopped, and this has brought me to a weird place. other people just seemed stupid to me cos of my judgements, and i guess that i seemed like an **** to them, now i see that no-one needs 'my help'. i honestly did try to help people which just seems stupid to me now. i wasn't in a position to help them either. i guess that some people are not following their hearts, and the way i see it the only way to 'help' them is to be following your heart, and lead by example. i know that i wasnt following my heart truly until spirit descent. i have known for a long time that it was the right thing to do, yet i wasnt actually doing it. i know that hearts can be afraid some times and this is why i didnt follow my heart, and i know that i was wrong. i know that once i gave my heart strength and i started to love the world again that this was the turning point for me.
so i dunno if others need my help, i dunno why i write other than for myself, which seems silly since i am fighting self importance, yet it makes sense to me cos i look back and laugh, i see the light in my words, and it gives my heart strength.
maybe there are people who read this and they arent following their heart and this will, yet on this forum i guess that i must be preaching to the converted, i dont really know anything about you all, other than what some people here show me and so it does seem pointless some times, i mean i dont really know why people would read this, we all have our own worlds and yet there is connections, and so i write.
recapping i have realised that basically just judgements that i still held, and i get that sorcery isnt something you learn, in a way it is just awareness, not to demeen things. i see that i am UNlearning conditioning, judgements, like dj said you pit the two worlds together to get to the 'truth', and i see that entering the sorcerers world i am now stopping my judgements, not doing. it is much better not to write in the style i have been. i know all of this yet i didnt catch myself in time previously when posting. i write for two reasons, for my 'self' and for others, yet i have found that maybe its pointless to write for 'others', you see that in my world for a long time i saw that people were confused and weren't doing what their hearts told them, and it confused me, actually it used to piss me off that people were so stupid - and this is what i have stopped, and this has brought me to a weird place. other people just seemed stupid to me cos of my judgements, and i guess that i seemed like an **** to them, now i see that no-one needs 'my help'. i honestly did try to help people which just seems stupid to me now. i wasn't in a position to help them either. i guess that some people are not following their hearts, and the way i see it the only way to 'help' them is to be following your heart, and lead by example. i know that i wasnt following my heart truly until spirit descent. i have known for a long time that it was the right thing to do, yet i wasnt actually doing it. i know that hearts can be afraid some times and this is why i didnt follow my heart, and i know that i was wrong. i know that once i gave my heart strength and i started to love the world again that this was the turning point for me.
so i dunno if others need my help, i dunno why i write other than for myself, which seems silly since i am fighting self importance, yet it makes sense to me cos i look back and laugh, i see the light in my words, and it gives my heart strength.
maybe there are people who read this and they arent following their heart and this will, yet on this forum i guess that i must be preaching to the converted, i dont really know anything about you all, other than what some people here show me and so it does seem pointless some times, i mean i dont really know why people would read this, we all have our own worlds and yet there is connections, and so i write.