01-02-2015, 12:00 AM
Have you tried doing not- doings that focus your attention. Like a new way of dancing or complex movements involving mirroring movement with the one side of the body with the other whilst focusing intently on the sensation of your body as it moves through space? Miles of walking backwards on a wooded path with lots of contrasts of shading I find intensely relaxing, but also focuses my attention acutely. Can you translate any of your kung-fu training into a attention-meditation?
Perhaps going into dreaming from a more sober position would assuage your reason. Try falling asleep consciously. Relax your body until it is still and heavy as lead floating in a avoid, then imagine doing tumbles head over heals, first forward and then backward for a time - until you wear out your attention, then just relax and observe. When you imagine doing the tumbling be sure to remain completely relaxed and ensure that you can actually feel it. Getting butterfly sensations in your stomach would indicate that you are feeling it. Just watch as your body goes to sleep.
Perhaps going into dreaming from a more sober position would assuage your reason. Try falling asleep consciously. Relax your body until it is still and heavy as lead floating in a avoid, then imagine doing tumbles head over heals, first forward and then backward for a time - until you wear out your attention, then just relax and observe. When you imagine doing the tumbling be sure to remain completely relaxed and ensure that you can actually feel it. Getting butterfly sensations in your stomach would indicate that you are feeling it. Just watch as your body goes to sleep.