01-18-2015, 12:00 AM
Progress!
Finally for the first time in about 3 or 4 years I was able to look at my hands...
It was really odd, and even embarrassing on this forum which prizes the elimination of self-absorption...
Basically I had been dreaming that I was playing a video game and was towards the end-game, so I had been traversing through a sort of maze where I eventually came into what I believed to be my house. I knew I would find a 'verion of myself' inside there somewhere and I might have to fight it (kung fu style). Instead what I came to was a mirror...
I knew I was dreaming then. In the past dreaming of a mirror meant that I could practice changing my dreaming body, and even minor changes to my physical body's appearance by attempting to shape shift in front of the mirror. I believe I ironed out some wrinkles around my mouth that way once.
I held the image of my body, which was nude, as long as I could. I examined every detail while also glancing back to the hands from time to time. I became so caught up in what the body looked like, even mildly aroused. I played with the appearance a little, altering the length of the neck, attempting to cut some fat from the belly, and expand some muscle mass. I went over a different details for a long time all while making short glances back to my hands.
The mirror eventually began to fog up, I could not hold the image, and I woke up.
Finally for the first time in about 3 or 4 years I was able to look at my hands...
It was really odd, and even embarrassing on this forum which prizes the elimination of self-absorption...
Basically I had been dreaming that I was playing a video game and was towards the end-game, so I had been traversing through a sort of maze where I eventually came into what I believed to be my house. I knew I would find a 'verion of myself' inside there somewhere and I might have to fight it (kung fu style). Instead what I came to was a mirror...
I knew I was dreaming then. In the past dreaming of a mirror meant that I could practice changing my dreaming body, and even minor changes to my physical body's appearance by attempting to shape shift in front of the mirror. I believe I ironed out some wrinkles around my mouth that way once.
I held the image of my body, which was nude, as long as I could. I examined every detail while also glancing back to the hands from time to time. I became so caught up in what the body looked like, even mildly aroused. I played with the appearance a little, altering the length of the neck, attempting to cut some fat from the belly, and expand some muscle mass. I went over a different details for a long time all while making short glances back to my hands.
The mirror eventually began to fog up, I could not hold the image, and I woke up.