11-07-2014, 12:00 AM
Littlepaw wrote:I cant really get a feeling for what you are saying here at all Billy, please bare in mind I am a bit slow and it takes some simple explaining for me to understand sometimes : )
Billy
Thank you, thank you. In interaction with serloco I have been offered his abilities and they are potentially mine Littlepaw--just as my penchant for empty meaninglessness is given in return.
I am speaking from 'no-knowledge' but earnestly still. LISTEN:
I go into the world (throughout life/ and as most everyone else) and am usually not up to it--I myself always had to pretend my way through the conventional maze of doing the world--I am very pragmatic that way--and I have attained enough in that syntax to be ordinarily comfortable. Yet, presumably as yourself, I have paid attention to my existence on my own terms--well outside of a societal box--I AM DRAWN INWARD--THAT IS WHERE I THRIVE. (I want to share that idea).
I believe it is necessary, with circumstances what they are for most, to put the external (tonal/practical?) in good order--such as money, human relations, philosophy, etc. I was able to do that, then SEPARATE (reasonable detachment) and take a natural 'heartness' path into my core being. REALLY
Learning from DETACHMENT, I realized I did not want the world (ESPECIALLY other humans) to have power over me. I focused on being GOOD with myself, ESPECIALLY when the manifested aspects were anything but good (as per conventional appraisal) {I won little battles detaching and being 'up' when anyone else would be 'down.'}. I got a TASTE for learning to embrace life as is, even with an underlying distaste for the idea of existence existing at all. {I would prefer my annihilation than being forever part of the world-- but also began to SEE my strength in retreating deeper into myself.} Nevertheless, I understood that the energy of the external world was complimentary because it became a comforting blanket. What was once uninviting, ugly, hostile remained as it was, but the very attributes of worldliness became the food (energy) source for nurturing myself in separation. This I have been consciously aware of for at least a dozen years (in lesser degree at first).
SO... I allowed myself IN ACCORD WITH MY OWN REASON, to experience mindstates that were obviously negative. I TRUSTED myself to indulge them, knowing REASON would be only a faint far-off whisper. The natural progession brought me face to face with this darkness of sorcery which is naturally threatening to someone like me (A nice ethical guy, formerly Catholic, benevolent family, etc.) The influence is tenable even after many years of detachment practices. KNOW that sorcery is just another form of worldliness (had to learn this)
The exposure to the sorcery ideas here are more food--strengthens my constitution of going into myself further still. WHY do this?
BECAUSE I find untouchable invulnerable peace {I call this authentic SELF}. Ironically, I come back to the world more fully my conventional self too {potency there-- the controlled folly principle-- emotions yes, but not ones you cling to. (by the way, I interpret/understand serloco with this in mind)}
I am always going to essentially be the essential ethical me in world manifestation terms for the forseeable infinity. Stay with YOUR OWN REASON (logic) and HEART TRUST (your 'sacred' idea of self)
Trust to engage reasonable detachment Littlepaw. It takes little courage or effort. Just little by little--and observe so you know its effect and that you can trust yourself even as you allow what prior was undoable or undesirable. Do not seek, or work unecessarily. Let the power of your own ideas work for you. I found they manifest when you DON'T RUSH.
Move inward (into your OWN vast nothingness) because this is where you experience freedom and joy.
Billy
Thank you, thank you. In interaction with serloco I have been offered his abilities and they are potentially mine Littlepaw--just as my penchant for empty meaninglessness is given in return.
I am speaking from 'no-knowledge' but earnestly still. LISTEN:
I go into the world (throughout life/ and as most everyone else) and am usually not up to it--I myself always had to pretend my way through the conventional maze of doing the world--I am very pragmatic that way--and I have attained enough in that syntax to be ordinarily comfortable. Yet, presumably as yourself, I have paid attention to my existence on my own terms--well outside of a societal box--I AM DRAWN INWARD--THAT IS WHERE I THRIVE. (I want to share that idea).
I believe it is necessary, with circumstances what they are for most, to put the external (tonal/practical?) in good order--such as money, human relations, philosophy, etc. I was able to do that, then SEPARATE (reasonable detachment) and take a natural 'heartness' path into my core being. REALLY
Learning from DETACHMENT, I realized I did not want the world (ESPECIALLY other humans) to have power over me. I focused on being GOOD with myself, ESPECIALLY when the manifested aspects were anything but good (as per conventional appraisal) {I won little battles detaching and being 'up' when anyone else would be 'down.'}. I got a TASTE for learning to embrace life as is, even with an underlying distaste for the idea of existence existing at all. {I would prefer my annihilation than being forever part of the world-- but also began to SEE my strength in retreating deeper into myself.} Nevertheless, I understood that the energy of the external world was complimentary because it became a comforting blanket. What was once uninviting, ugly, hostile remained as it was, but the very attributes of worldliness became the food (energy) source for nurturing myself in separation. This I have been consciously aware of for at least a dozen years (in lesser degree at first).
SO... I allowed myself IN ACCORD WITH MY OWN REASON, to experience mindstates that were obviously negative. I TRUSTED myself to indulge them, knowing REASON would be only a faint far-off whisper. The natural progession brought me face to face with this darkness of sorcery which is naturally threatening to someone like me (A nice ethical guy, formerly Catholic, benevolent family, etc.) The influence is tenable even after many years of detachment practices. KNOW that sorcery is just another form of worldliness (had to learn this)
The exposure to the sorcery ideas here are more food--strengthens my constitution of going into myself further still. WHY do this?
BECAUSE I find untouchable invulnerable peace {I call this authentic SELF}. Ironically, I come back to the world more fully my conventional self too {potency there-- the controlled folly principle-- emotions yes, but not ones you cling to. (by the way, I interpret/understand serloco with this in mind)}
I am always going to essentially be the essential ethical me in world manifestation terms for the forseeable infinity. Stay with YOUR OWN REASON (logic) and HEART TRUST (your 'sacred' idea of self)
Trust to engage reasonable detachment Littlepaw. It takes little courage or effort. Just little by little--and observe so you know its effect and that you can trust yourself even as you allow what prior was undoable or undesirable. Do not seek, or work unecessarily. Let the power of your own ideas work for you. I found they manifest when you DON'T RUSH.
Move inward (into your OWN vast nothingness) because this is where you experience freedom and joy.