11-08-2014, 12:00 AM
Just to be sure, the 'worthlessness' alludes to beating the **** out of versions of your fixed identity. Don't worry, you'll go back out THERE with even a bigger ego self than prior. AND that is okay (as you'll gain more objectivity).
One of the reasons you might pay attention to someone like serloco (if not him) is to cut away from the stream of conditioned societal thinking. You don't need to believe or not believe--need to break old ideas that are cement shoes and cultivate the space to become more fluid of spirit. That is why I used to read Castaneda. Along the way you adopt more progressive versions, until as I said, you beat the living stuffings out of attachment to status and get some TASTES of free spirit. Once this happens a few times you become a professional you. OMG I am laughing--because this state is so uncharted. OMG its fun--but the challenges are never ending and yet wonderful in every respect-- expanding ranges of your life experience, ever expanding self-trust and conquering self-doubt.
I had the benefit of having two persons of awareness pointing out things in the ordinary activities of friendship earlier in life. However, the ideas are what are important-- not THEIR ideas--rather simply your ideas of truth for your OWN self brought out of you. Who the f*** cares where they pop up-- embrace them as yours when true.
If you are uncertain about something, someone, etc as true or not--THAT is an answer loud and clear, either 1) NOT true or 2) NOT ready and SEE number 1 (NOT true (NOW)
IT must be simple. INTEND to know the truth. TASTE its purity with your heart.
I wish I could adapt the words to your specific situation. But anyways, you walk alone BECAUSE you are alone. DO NOT BE AFRAID OF THAT ALONENESS (gobble it up and watch it caresss your inner. Watch how the opposites/judgements of life become neutralized, and yet feelings more vibrant, YES pain, YES joy, YES whatever. AND a NO that is REAL is there too) It is VALUABLE FREEDOM.
One of the reasons you might pay attention to someone like serloco (if not him) is to cut away from the stream of conditioned societal thinking. You don't need to believe or not believe--need to break old ideas that are cement shoes and cultivate the space to become more fluid of spirit. That is why I used to read Castaneda. Along the way you adopt more progressive versions, until as I said, you beat the living stuffings out of attachment to status and get some TASTES of free spirit. Once this happens a few times you become a professional you. OMG I am laughing--because this state is so uncharted. OMG its fun--but the challenges are never ending and yet wonderful in every respect-- expanding ranges of your life experience, ever expanding self-trust and conquering self-doubt.
I had the benefit of having two persons of awareness pointing out things in the ordinary activities of friendship earlier in life. However, the ideas are what are important-- not THEIR ideas--rather simply your ideas of truth for your OWN self brought out of you. Who the f*** cares where they pop up-- embrace them as yours when true.
If you are uncertain about something, someone, etc as true or not--THAT is an answer loud and clear, either 1) NOT true or 2) NOT ready and SEE number 1 (NOT true (NOW)
IT must be simple. INTEND to know the truth. TASTE its purity with your heart.
I wish I could adapt the words to your specific situation. But anyways, you walk alone BECAUSE you are alone. DO NOT BE AFRAID OF THAT ALONENESS (gobble it up and watch it caresss your inner. Watch how the opposites/judgements of life become neutralized, and yet feelings more vibrant, YES pain, YES joy, YES whatever. AND a NO that is REAL is there too) It is VALUABLE FREEDOM.