03-24-2011, 12:00 AM
lex icon wrote:
I was in my cab the other day I had just started. It was very early in morning still dark. I parked behind the mall and hoped to catch an hour of sleep before the calls started to come in from dispatch. I got myself comfortable arranged my cushion and went to take off my shoes so I could stretch out better. As I pulled up my foot I realized I was not in park and the car started to creep forward as I took my foot off the brake. So I put it in park and laid back.
It was not long after I got settled and relaxed that I began to hear a familiar buzzing sound, like tinitus on steroids. For the last 20 years or more I have heard this sound just before I go to sleep and have never known what to do about it. At first I used to actively resist it and after a while it would subside. But it would always return few days later. So then I tried welcoming it and trying to go with. That achieved nothing either. Sometimes the buzzing was very uncomfortable and intense other times mild. For years this went on.
This particular time though there was a visual associated with it. I could see what appeared to be a page with words on it and as the buzzing became more intense and present the words and the page started to slowly dissolve on the left side and gave me the impression that the words were being swept off to the right. What remained to my visual impression was like a grey white static. For some reason I focused upon a single white dot, that seems perposterous when I consider all the dots that made up that static field, when I focused on it, I distinctly thought it was a tunnel (don’t know why) and that I would go through it. As soon as I intended this, the dot quickly expanded (it was not a tunnel that I was expecting to go through) and ‘pop’ I was in a dream scene totally lucid and knew this to be dreaming.
I was in a parking lot and there were lots of people walking by me in the opposite direction. One girl in particular caught my attention, she seemed more vibrant and she was looking directly at me as she was walking by. I immediately pointed my little finger at her and asked her if she was an energy producing being. Before I could get a response to my action, it turns out I was in a car and it started moving (just like when I had parked the car), I was mildly frustrated by this because the car moved past the girl and I felt distracted and that I needed to steer the car. The car moved towards a loading dock at the back of a concert theater. People were coming and going into the building and I could hear Zion by Fluke playing in the building.
http://www.youtube.com/wa...ADWc&feature=related
I couldn’t wait to get out of that damn car and go in that building. So I quickly started to put my shoes on, oh for fucks sake, really, REALLY! Then I was having trouble getting the back on my shoe over my heel lol. I was so frustrated and my dream attention quickly dissipated and I knew I was losing the attention.
Then I found myself back in the waking construct in the cab. I had never gone to sleep, as far as I could tell, from the time I first parked there to the time I found myself back in the cab! All this showed me what to do with the buzzing sound after all the years. It also showed me how little control I have while in dreaming and that the unconscious environment aspects that populate dreaming have a tendency to rob the attention if you give them too much attention. But even though I was totally lucid I was not in control as one imagines themselves in waking construct. I am just thrilled that I saw what to do with the buzzing. I am now waiting for the buzzing to occur again. It does not happen as much as it used to.
Wow, this is a really nice sharing, thanks. I also have that buzzing, but think of it as electrical in nature. It happens every time I go through to another world.
You mention that you have no control. Why did you think that you needed to put your shoes on first? Perhaps it is your effort to do what one is suppose to do that took you out of the scene? Maybe next time just go with it. You might not need to open doors.
Fwiw, when I read CC, this was my understanding how DJ was meeting with him, like how you saw the girl.
I was in my cab the other day I had just started. It was very early in morning still dark. I parked behind the mall and hoped to catch an hour of sleep before the calls started to come in from dispatch. I got myself comfortable arranged my cushion and went to take off my shoes so I could stretch out better. As I pulled up my foot I realized I was not in park and the car started to creep forward as I took my foot off the brake. So I put it in park and laid back.
It was not long after I got settled and relaxed that I began to hear a familiar buzzing sound, like tinitus on steroids. For the last 20 years or more I have heard this sound just before I go to sleep and have never known what to do about it. At first I used to actively resist it and after a while it would subside. But it would always return few days later. So then I tried welcoming it and trying to go with. That achieved nothing either. Sometimes the buzzing was very uncomfortable and intense other times mild. For years this went on.
This particular time though there was a visual associated with it. I could see what appeared to be a page with words on it and as the buzzing became more intense and present the words and the page started to slowly dissolve on the left side and gave me the impression that the words were being swept off to the right. What remained to my visual impression was like a grey white static. For some reason I focused upon a single white dot, that seems perposterous when I consider all the dots that made up that static field, when I focused on it, I distinctly thought it was a tunnel (don’t know why) and that I would go through it. As soon as I intended this, the dot quickly expanded (it was not a tunnel that I was expecting to go through) and ‘pop’ I was in a dream scene totally lucid and knew this to be dreaming.
I was in a parking lot and there were lots of people walking by me in the opposite direction. One girl in particular caught my attention, she seemed more vibrant and she was looking directly at me as she was walking by. I immediately pointed my little finger at her and asked her if she was an energy producing being. Before I could get a response to my action, it turns out I was in a car and it started moving (just like when I had parked the car), I was mildly frustrated by this because the car moved past the girl and I felt distracted and that I needed to steer the car. The car moved towards a loading dock at the back of a concert theater. People were coming and going into the building and I could hear Zion by Fluke playing in the building.
http://www.youtube.com/wa...ADWc&feature=related
I couldn’t wait to get out of that damn car and go in that building. So I quickly started to put my shoes on, oh for fucks sake, really, REALLY! Then I was having trouble getting the back on my shoe over my heel lol. I was so frustrated and my dream attention quickly dissipated and I knew I was losing the attention.
Then I found myself back in the waking construct in the cab. I had never gone to sleep, as far as I could tell, from the time I first parked there to the time I found myself back in the cab! All this showed me what to do with the buzzing sound after all the years. It also showed me how little control I have while in dreaming and that the unconscious environment aspects that populate dreaming have a tendency to rob the attention if you give them too much attention. But even though I was totally lucid I was not in control as one imagines themselves in waking construct. I am just thrilled that I saw what to do with the buzzing. I am now waiting for the buzzing to occur again. It does not happen as much as it used to.
Wow, this is a really nice sharing, thanks. I also have that buzzing, but think of it as electrical in nature. It happens every time I go through to another world.
You mention that you have no control. Why did you think that you needed to put your shoes on first? Perhaps it is your effort to do what one is suppose to do that took you out of the scene? Maybe next time just go with it. You might not need to open doors.
Fwiw, when I read CC, this was my understanding how DJ was meeting with him, like how you saw the girl.