04-12-2017, 12:00 AM
I am realising that each day I walk the path, my path becomes more narrow. I havent yet notices the cracks, but i am realising the difference between likes dislikes and actual shadow intent. Sometimes I might dislike a person for certain actions, on my part due to self importance, rather than shadow intent. This was realised by actually reading the energy behind the words, sometimes i must have mistook tone.
Today I learned a lesson about the difference between gossip and opinion. Most people can get away with opinion, I realised that my opinions were mostly gossip. Today I tried to share about something that happened at work with a group of co workers. I remember it got drowned out and i found myself speaking it louder while other people were talking. Right after I said it, i felt the energy change and i developed a pin point of pain on my throat. I know I was walking that fine line, and the architect told me that i was loosing integrity.
Maybe I am not prone to talking, Maybe I have to yet develop more opinions and or content, but aside from sharing feelings and insights, I have few stories of my past, as I have erased almost all of my personal history. The bent of my character is to choose to do nothing, or remain apathetic. It seems only sometimes I can muster the energy to be daring and funny. Truely acting with abandon and do so as if i cared. But it seems this is only granted to me sometimes. Maybe this is the mastery. As There is still much more i need to process before I can decide when To make gestures.
Another thing i should note here too is, that maybe not all of my opinions are opinions to be shared. I am not talking here but rather at work or in public. As I still do not know the difference between What I have Viewed and what I have Seen. It seems i shared an insight today that was not nutured by another co worker, It was an off hand remark by me, but i realised it could have possibly lost its potency from being said. I am quite sure it was a result of seeing the capability of a new supervisor that started.
This is all I have for tonight, anyone is welcome to comment and give insight.
thank you
Warfcat
Today I learned a lesson about the difference between gossip and opinion. Most people can get away with opinion, I realised that my opinions were mostly gossip. Today I tried to share about something that happened at work with a group of co workers. I remember it got drowned out and i found myself speaking it louder while other people were talking. Right after I said it, i felt the energy change and i developed a pin point of pain on my throat. I know I was walking that fine line, and the architect told me that i was loosing integrity.
Maybe I am not prone to talking, Maybe I have to yet develop more opinions and or content, but aside from sharing feelings and insights, I have few stories of my past, as I have erased almost all of my personal history. The bent of my character is to choose to do nothing, or remain apathetic. It seems only sometimes I can muster the energy to be daring and funny. Truely acting with abandon and do so as if i cared. But it seems this is only granted to me sometimes. Maybe this is the mastery. As There is still much more i need to process before I can decide when To make gestures.
Another thing i should note here too is, that maybe not all of my opinions are opinions to be shared. I am not talking here but rather at work or in public. As I still do not know the difference between What I have Viewed and what I have Seen. It seems i shared an insight today that was not nutured by another co worker, It was an off hand remark by me, but i realised it could have possibly lost its potency from being said. I am quite sure it was a result of seeing the capability of a new supervisor that started.
This is all I have for tonight, anyone is welcome to comment and give insight.
thank you
Warfcat