12-16-2016, 12:00 AM
In one instant, seeing the essence of a piece of wood, in all its resplendent indescribable beauty. And then, it happens....I am "this" or "this" is "that". Something riding shotgun interjects and hijacks what was once pure and clear....and diverts it off center into spirals of fractalising associations until the center is nowhere in site....lost in a maze of considerations. I mean, I understand your insight as to "I am like Jesus" in that moment of realization..but the demon, to me, is taking that realization and then taking it too far...taking it seriously as something to be hardened around and leveraged against for the purposed of self importance. The FI does this almost reflexively.
With respect to spiritual revolution...for me, its not about identifying what's going on "out there" in terms of what's being done to us...but about what's going in "inside here". Seeing, in the immediacy of the moment, what's happening when I'm being diverted and when I'm centering silently around the abstract core. Getting a feel for the difference and what precipitates the shift, one way or another.
The whole notion of the messiah complex has to do with that hijacking...getting diverted....and the self importance that comes with it. Taking credit for something that's just naturally already there and happening in the first place, with or without my awareness of it. Becoming aware of it doesn't mean its mine....but, then again, it is in a way because I'm aligned with it through and through. But, the instant that something "claims"....that that subtle inflection to self-aggrandizement interjects itself...that's when I I lose the plot. Lack of humility...lack of perspective.
I guess that's my whole issue with the Jesus identification. Why make the distinction if it represents something inherent in everyone/everything? To much emphasis on comparisons between those of us who realize our capacity to be like Jesus and those of us who don't or won't. The difference is just realization of what's already there...and who can take credit for that? Anybody can do it any time, any where. Seems absurd. It's like stumbling upon a new land feature, like a river, and then naming it after myself. Ridiculous.
IDK, whatever. I currently don't feel to worried about "the state of things", personally. I just figure that every living thing (it seems all things are living, too ) enjoys the game of getting diverted and ensnarled....ensorcelled, so to speak...and then extracting themselves to find their way home, bringing home "trophies" of their experiences. The joys of getting lost and then finding one's way home. It's a great story!
With respect to spiritual revolution...for me, its not about identifying what's going on "out there" in terms of what's being done to us...but about what's going in "inside here". Seeing, in the immediacy of the moment, what's happening when I'm being diverted and when I'm centering silently around the abstract core. Getting a feel for the difference and what precipitates the shift, one way or another.
The whole notion of the messiah complex has to do with that hijacking...getting diverted....and the self importance that comes with it. Taking credit for something that's just naturally already there and happening in the first place, with or without my awareness of it. Becoming aware of it doesn't mean its mine....but, then again, it is in a way because I'm aligned with it through and through. But, the instant that something "claims"....that that subtle inflection to self-aggrandizement interjects itself...that's when I I lose the plot. Lack of humility...lack of perspective.
I guess that's my whole issue with the Jesus identification. Why make the distinction if it represents something inherent in everyone/everything? To much emphasis on comparisons between those of us who realize our capacity to be like Jesus and those of us who don't or won't. The difference is just realization of what's already there...and who can take credit for that? Anybody can do it any time, any where. Seems absurd. It's like stumbling upon a new land feature, like a river, and then naming it after myself. Ridiculous.
IDK, whatever. I currently don't feel to worried about "the state of things", personally. I just figure that every living thing (it seems all things are living, too ) enjoys the game of getting diverted and ensnarled....ensorcelled, so to speak...and then extracting themselves to find their way home, bringing home "trophies" of their experiences. The joys of getting lost and then finding one's way home. It's a great story!