12-20-2016, 12:00 AM
wow thats quite patronising.
i was born in clarity.. (left over from last life)
and took it down.
by pitting power against my sobriety,
it was never actually clinical schizophrenia because i never gave in to a fragmenting force, knowing
it was a wrestle by my intent of pitting power against my own sobriety as an ISOMETRIC force.
sobriety -- the part of me which could have said- I dont need to experience this i will move my assemblage point
to somehting less inconvenient.
but i didnt.. i pit power aginst sobriety
and made NEW POWER from it.
then i find failures of the second enemy trying to move their assemblage point to the position where they can reap
NEW POWER i gleaned through warriorship.. i become very sad.
sad because to them its just another bit of hedonism and comfort..
with no foundation in recapitulation.
"And thus he has encountered his second enemy: Clarity!
That clarity of mind, which is so hard to obtain, dispels fear, but also blinds. "It forces the man never to doubt himself. It gives him the assurance he can do anything he pleases, for he sees clearly into everything. And he is courageous because he is clear, and he stops at nothing because he is clear. But all that is a mistake; it is like something incomplete. If the man yields to this make-believe power, he has succumbed to his second enemy and will fumble with learning. He will rush when he should be patient, or he will be patient when he should rush. And he will fumble with learning until he winds up incapable of learning anything more."
"What becomes of a man who is defeated in that way, don Juan? Does he die as a result?"
"No, he doesn’t die. His second enemy has just stopped him cold from trying to become a man of knowledge; instead, the man may turn into a buoyant warrior, or a clown. Yet the clarity for which he has paid so dearly will never change to darkness and fear again. He will be clear as long as he lives, but he will no longer learn, or yearn for, anything."
i was born in clarity.. (left over from last life)
and took it down.
by pitting power against my sobriety,
it was never actually clinical schizophrenia because i never gave in to a fragmenting force, knowing
it was a wrestle by my intent of pitting power against my own sobriety as an ISOMETRIC force.
sobriety -- the part of me which could have said- I dont need to experience this i will move my assemblage point
to somehting less inconvenient.
but i didnt.. i pit power aginst sobriety
and made NEW POWER from it.
then i find failures of the second enemy trying to move their assemblage point to the position where they can reap
NEW POWER i gleaned through warriorship.. i become very sad.
sad because to them its just another bit of hedonism and comfort..
with no foundation in recapitulation.
"And thus he has encountered his second enemy: Clarity!
That clarity of mind, which is so hard to obtain, dispels fear, but also blinds. "It forces the man never to doubt himself. It gives him the assurance he can do anything he pleases, for he sees clearly into everything. And he is courageous because he is clear, and he stops at nothing because he is clear. But all that is a mistake; it is like something incomplete. If the man yields to this make-believe power, he has succumbed to his second enemy and will fumble with learning. He will rush when he should be patient, or he will be patient when he should rush. And he will fumble with learning until he winds up incapable of learning anything more."
"What becomes of a man who is defeated in that way, don Juan? Does he die as a result?"
"No, he doesn’t die. His second enemy has just stopped him cold from trying to become a man of knowledge; instead, the man may turn into a buoyant warrior, or a clown. Yet the clarity for which he has paid so dearly will never change to darkness and fear again. He will be clear as long as he lives, but he will no longer learn, or yearn for, anything."